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i am filled with utter dread about increasing from 12.5 to 25mg tonight. i can barely eat im so anxious about it. i hate how much my life is ruled by this phobia. i have been sobbing all morning
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sandi77808 april89734
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Try to see it as a positive...with every increase, another chance for the medicine to work for you. And it will work, but you need to increase for that to happen. As hard as it is, you have to try to just get through every day until you begin to heal. It will happen!!! xoxo
sue74917 april89734
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April if it is giving you so much anxiety then wait another week, yes it may prolong your recovery but if you are in such a state about increasing then why put yourself through it? On the other hand you could try it and see what happens, with the reasoning that you can't possible feel any worse and it is another small step to be free of your fears and phobias. it is hard I know, I was really scared and anxious about swapping from citalopram to sertraline but do you know what happened, I got better and got my life back. Take a little bit of control and decide what you want to do that is the best for you. You will be ok in the end you will make it through all this rubbish
Grounded april89734
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Oh how I know exactly how you feel! I used to cause myself panic attacks just thinking about taking medicine! I finally decided that the way I felt was so bad, it was worth a shot! And so glad that I did, it really did help me tremendously. You can do this, if I can do it I know you can too. You will be glad you did in the long run.
Best Wishes!
april89734
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i am actually trembling. i know i need to do this and im going to be like this for every increase. i am a complete mess.
Potatoghost april89734
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hey April x
remember how scared you were to take the 12.5mg
you had it sat there for ages and you finally said enough and took the dose! it wasnt easy but you done it.
you can do this too.
no rush, take as long as you need but you will be ok!
april89734
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its taken me 11 months to take 12.5 😦 im such a whimp. i cant put it off but i am so scared. i feel incredibly stupid i really do
sue74917 april89734
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ok april lets get this out the way, you are not a whimp, I was once told by one of my GP's that only strong people get anxiety and depression because they demand so much from themselves, you are far from being stupid, If you were you would not be trying so hard to get better. You are stronger then any anxiety,fear or phobia, you are not totally broken just a little upside down at the moment. the medication and anxiety are tricking your brain into thinking that you will never get better and this is your life,it is not, it is just a temporary thing you have got to go through to get yourself well
april89734 sue74917
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thank you Sue that has made me feel better about myself. it took me so long to seek help because i always felt i was not worth the trouble. i am trying so hard to be strong for my little boy. i feel terribly sick right now about my upcoming dose. i cant shift my focus. im so sad that so many people suffer with this, its so unnecessary, cruel too
sandi77808 april89734
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What Sue said!!! She is right! You are not wimpy in any way...my daughter would berate herself the same way and I would always say, if I had an illness like cancer wouldn't you expect me to be scared? Would you tell me I was a wimp if the treatments scared me? Noooo. Of course you wouldn't so don't do that to yourself either. Depression and anxiety are no different - they are a disease like any other - and the treatments can seem really scary. So please don't beat yourself up because the feelings and fears you are having are SYMPTOMS of the disease and it's a matter of getting through it and letting the treatment work. You are not alone, we're all rooting for you and know you can do it.
sue74917 april89734
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Yes April it is cruel and I would not wish it upon anyone but my lovely there are much worse horrors in the world. You say you are trying to stay strong for your little boy, take that strength and focus on that, look in the mirror and say ok I am not well at the moment but I can and will do this, have a picture of your boy somewhere you can look at it when the anxiety and panicking take over and constantly remind yourself why you are doing this, I have a picture of my grandchildren in my bedroom and when the times came when I thought I could no longer take it I would look at it and say out loud I can do this for you
april89734
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this is why i hate myself because there are people truly suffering out there, extreme abuse and neglect and disease and im sobbing over a natural bodily function meant to keep the body safe. i feel ashamed all the time and hate expressing my suffering because its pathetic. i crumbled and took 12.5. all day ive been shaking crying and choking on the food ive been forcing into myself. i feel so pathetic right now
borderriever april89734
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Hello April
Generally Doctors seem they start us of on a lower dose then increase your dose when the body is beginning to get used to the medication, there is nothing unusual about this, it is very normal, you will now need to allow a further five weeks for the drugs to work.
Stop worrying, you are on your way to better times
BOB
april89734 borderriever
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ive started at 12.5 for my own sanity after trying 50mg 11 months ago and having a breakdown from one dose due to the anxiety
borderriever april89734
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April
You need to stop worrying about that does you need to reach out and take, to get you well you need to follow your Doctors recommendation and follow instructions
Believe me I know how you feel, I am going through a rough time with my medications I am following in the opposite direction and I need to reduce a large tr anche of medications.
We may balk at the suggestions made when it comes to medications, however we need to understand at the beginning of our medications we can expect an increase of the script and after a short period of time, your Doctor will increase the dose as your body gets used to the lower dose. You trust your Doctor and His advice, remember Your Doctor would prefer not to increase your dose however to get you well He needs to follow that well worn pathway, to get you well and more positive in your life journey
BOB
april89734
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so i just took the other 12.5 and i cant breathe im freaking so much
Potatoghost april89734
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take deep breaths lovely. make sure you are breathing properly. take your benzo if you are panicking too much x you will be absolutely fine honest x you were so brave to take it so well done! you done the 12.5mg and were fine and so will the 25mg. you will smash it don't worry x
april89734 Potatoghost
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im a mess today i feel so alone
Potatoghost april89734
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I know exactly how you feel sweet x it's a really tough journey x you have started so don't give up now x you aren't alone so many of us are poorly and cant wait to get better so keep posting for advise and support and we will help x you don't have to do this alone x
its gonna sound strange but what helps me when I feel like that is put the tv on in the background even of you aren't watching it. just hearing the voices can make you feel less lonely x I know it sounds silly but it does help.
just remember. you're one day closer to feeling better x
emma66490 Potatoghost
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That's such good advice from Potatoghost and just to echo him that you're not alone! There's all of us here and so many other people in the world going through similar stuff that we are. Are there any friends or family you can see today to support you? Or anyone you can call and talk with? Feeling isolated will warp your sense of perspective and make things seem worse than they are in my experience.
I think its ok to be a mess, accept it, it will pass. Nothing can last forever- good or bad things.
Do you know any breathing techniques you can do? I find 4 7 8 breathing a good one even when I'm trembling so much I feel like I can't exist anywhere and my thoughts are racing. Thinking of you, keep posting as much as you need to x
AxleWilliams april89734
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I know it's tough. A lot of us have gone through this ride more than once. It does not get any easier and each time it's different. All this adds to the frustration and colors your judgement..."Is it working?...Will it work?...How much longer?" All valid questions but with no concrete answers. Just know that you are not alone. There are many others on the same road. You will get better...it just takes time. Listen to Potatoghost he has a good suggestion. Also, if you are able to, get out for a walk. I find them very helpful as distractions and they help me dissipate some of the anxiety. You are going to be okay.