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I have been on here a lot the last few weeks and really just need a moment to vent. I had a good cry and I know this will get better.
Bimalleolar Surgery 7/27; cast off 9/13 and got a boot. 9/16- noticed redness and some seeping around the outside big incision...... sent pic to MD (we live an hour from the clinic) on Friday and was told to stay off it for the weekend and was put on antibiotics. Well - it is Monday and is not better at all. The nurse called and I have an appt at 2. Fortunately I was able to get a friend to drive me- (hubby not available today).
I just know I am going to be non wt bearing for however long this takes and I am just so deflated. I feel vulnerable with my foot totally unprotected- scared that someone will bump it or I will. Having to keep it dry so showering again w/ the cast condom. I feel like I have taken a step back. And if one more person tells me "it could be worse"- I am going to scream. I am well aware it could be worse and thank God everyday that I have my leg.... but when it is "YOU" going thru this - there are just some things that I will never say to anyone again. Right now- this is bad enough and I was so excited about wt bearing and getting off this couch. I have awful bursitis in the hip from sitting for 8 weeks so am constantly changing positions or laying down.
I should really delete this post as everyone on here has been so up beat and encouraging. Guess maybe I need to hear some of that today. It is rainy out which does not help even though we need it. But that is not helping.
Plus- did not sleep much the past few nights. I am paranoid that my husband is going to kick my leg or wound by accident.....
Well- that about sums it up. Please know that I am aware this will past-I already feel better for venting.... though am no happier with my situation- or any of yours for that matter. This is truly a really crummy injury.
And if this was not enough- I have to have 1/2 my thyroid removed in October- suspicious tumor.... I had put that out of my mind but today-... for whatever reason- it is baaaaccckkkk. Oh- and then there is that- When will I ever get back to work? Will I lose my job?
Sorry- but thank you for being there. I hope that you did not read this entire post..... it is really a downer.
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