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I'm 15 f and have general anxiety.
I had a very realistic dream last night in which I was told by a doctor that they had detected something in my bowel that could be cancer. The majority of the dream was spent feeling extremely scared and talking to my mum (who I moved away from a few months ago) about it. I was the only person who didn't want to believe that I had cancer and kept trying to convince myself it wasn't cancer. My mum (having been a nurse) pretty much knew that the doctors were right even though she couldn't tell me explicitly. After the doctors had done some 'tests', I went in with my mum to talk to a doctor and I remember looking over and seeing a file that said 'cancer' on it with my name, and asked the doctor if it was true in disbelief and she said yes. I asked how bad it was and she just raised her hand, shook it like 'so-so' and looked apologetic and made a 'mmmmm..' noise. She then tried to talk me through the treatment plan but I just started screaming and crying because the dream seemed so real.
I then woke up and was so surprised that it was only a dream. But the fear hasn't left me yet. For about a minute I had myself convinced that I WAS dead. Then I realised I wasn't and just cried.
I'm SO TERRIFIED that I do have cancer!! I feel like it's inside my body right now and I all I want is to be scanned so I can know if I do or not. I don't want to die. I want my mum. I feel very nauseous and heavy headed.
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