Intrusive thoughts or am I just making excuses for myself?
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I struggle with OCD and intrusive thoughts daily. It gets worse when I am by myself and have free time. My husband works weekends so I have to try and keep myself busy the whole time or else I have a mental breakdown. My mind rotates through things to obsess over and one of the things I often have intrusive thoughts about is cheating on my husband. I also struggle with relationship OCD. I know I have these intrusive thoughts about cheating because I know it is what would cause my husband and I not to be together anymore. He also knows I have these thoughts and has been so understanding because he knows what I struggle with.
Thursday, I was not feeling very "lovey" towards my husband and I started having intrusive thoughts about cheating. When I did I had a "I don't care feeling" and I was going through a scenario where I would immediately respond to myself "no!" in the past and I do not think this response happened when I was running through these thoughts in my head. I am obsessing over this now and I feel extremely guilty. I talked to my husband on the phone after and the feeling went away and yesterday when I was spending time with him I felt extremely guilty for having these thoughts. I don't know what to do. I have started to question if these are really intrusive thoughts or if I am just making excuses for myself. Please help. (btw I try to remind myself that these thoughts never really occurred before I started struggling with OCD).
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jan34534 cheyenne49274
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having intrusive thoughts is a very common with OCD. Are you being treated for OCD? Are you getting any kind of counseling? It’s important to get support because it’s too difficult to deal with everything that goes along with OCD when you are alone.
you have to constantly remind yourself that OCD is a condition that causes intrusive thoughts. And it’s not your fault. When you get a thought, don’t let it make you anxious. Just acknowledge the thought and then let it go. Watch it drift off. But stay in a relaxed manner. But for your own peace of mind. Get some support. So that you feel better. You can even do virtual counseling. Take care of yourself
cheyenne49274 jan34534
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I was getting counseling, my last session was in August. My husband and I recently moved across the country so I have yet to establish a lot of my medical care here. I am usually able to talk myself through these intrusive thoughts but this most recent time it is bothering me because I did not feel the guilt immediately like I usually do. I am considering going back soon. Thank you so much for your response.
katie94057 cheyenne49274
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i am going through very similar, for about 6 months now after an argument with my partner i am either convinced that he doesnt love me of that i dont love him, i feel so much guilt as we are a perfectly healthy couple, he treats me very well. but i obsess over that one argument we had, when i talk to him about it he cant understand why im still thinking about it as it hasnt even crossed his mind/he thought it was nothing. but my mind has spiralled into ocd, majority of my days i am drowning in thoughts of doubt about our relationship, and in those times i am telling myself its not my anxiety it is just how i feel, i need to take action, but i know i shouldnt make rash decisions when i am in such a state. when i dont have anxious days everything is fine and my mindset is completetly as peace with my life. i view my life completely dofferent depending if im anxious or not. i dont have any advice as i am also still atruggling but just know you arwnt alone!