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Since my anxiety has come back a little more than 4 months I’ve gone through a couple stages of anxiety. My big one for the longest time was severe health anxiety.
For the past few weeks that has diminished and now I’ve developed bad intrusive thoughts. I was suffering through horrible POCD (disgusting, I know) after watching a tv show episode and getting the anxiety for about 2 weeks.
Just as I was starting to get over it, my mind went to harm thoughts - hurting my loved ones and worrying I’m going to become a killer or listen to my horrible scary thoughts.
To make things worse, I’m supposed to switch to another antidepressant tonight Paroxetine after seeing a Psychiatrist who said this was good for OCD/intrusive thoughts and anxiety. But then I heard that someone who was on Paroxetine killed his family or something and that really scared me.
And then I saw on google (I know, never good) that there have been cases where people on antidepressants in general have committed homicide
So, of course now I’m freaking out because I’m on an antidepressant and have been for years and I’m worried I’ll end up hurting people I love
I’m trying to tell myself it’s just the anxiety and fear, but I doubt myself because of the intrusive thoughts. I know in my head I’ve been on an antidepressant for 5 years and I felt normal and fine, but then I start to question it and worry well maybe I had weird thoughts or something during those years and forgot.
I don’t know, can anyone reassure me that it’s just anxiety and the antidepressants won’t turn me into some killer?
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