Intrusive Thoughts - Scared!
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Since my anxiety has come back a little more than 4 months I’ve gone through a couple stages of anxiety. My big one for the longest time was severe health anxiety.
For the past few weeks that has diminished and now I’ve developed bad intrusive thoughts. I was suffering through horrible POCD (disgusting, I know) after watching a tv show episode and getting the anxiety for about 2 weeks.
Just as I was starting to get over it, my mind went to harm thoughts - hurting my loved ones and worrying I’m going to become a killer or listen to my horrible scary thoughts.
To make things worse, I’m supposed to switch to another antidepressant tonight Paroxetine after seeing a Psychiatrist who said this was good for OCD/intrusive thoughts and anxiety. But then I heard that someone who was on Paroxetine killed his family or something and that really scared me.
I’m trying to tell myself it’s just the anxiety and fear, but I doubt myself because of the intrusive thoughts. I know in my head I’ve been on an antidepressant for 5 years and I felt normal and fine, but then I start to question it and worry well maybe I had weird thoughts or something during those years and forgot.
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I have been where you are now and what you are thinking is the furthest thing from what you will do. The fact that these tbough scare you so much tells you that its against every mosrsal in your body.
I also took anti depressants without becoming my thoughts.
You are going to be okay. X x
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al-pk9 ac2667
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Hi ac,
I'm suffering intrusive thoughts right now and it's just about one of the most painful things going, for me it pretty much ruins every day and quality of life.
But, I've never convinced myself it is anything other than what it is. It's just an illusion, things your brain knows that trips you out playing over and over. Its not an indication of desire or truth.
My current case is unconventional in several aspects but a few years ago I had intrusive thoughts that were a lot more violent and sexual in nature, also coupled with the constant feeling I was about to lose control. I never did. You never do.
Homicide man is about as relatable to you or I as the next news item. You're just a normal decent person suffering from a well documented and common manifestation of anxiety disorder.
Al
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It’s hard to believe it at times - especially when I have this fear that antidepressants will make me go crazy or something.