Irrational Obsessions- Help
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Hello,
I am 24 years old and have been struggling with anxiety for about 6 months now in many different forms. Recently, I had a panic attack and felt like I wasn't here. That I was somewhere else. I was so focused on what I was seeing that it made me anxious about the images I was seeing within my vision. I think of it almost like being surrounded by a picture that I have no control over. That makes me really anxious and I don't know why. I feel like everyone should be aware of that. Because it's true to an extent, that we all see in first person and that the images and colors that make up our vision is just one giant picture each day that we have no control over it. It's almost feeling like I am smothered by these images which is my vision. Super strange an never felt this way before or noticed it until I had these panic attacks. I don't know how to explain this to a doctor and it scares me because no one seems to understand this obsession. How do I get over it? Has some one other than me noticed this or can help me? How do I get over this intrusive, irrational awareness/thoughts that I have?
Thanks,
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AlexandriaGizmo AP1014
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When I was younger I would have major panic attacks that made feel unreal, sometimes the room I was in would seem to expand and the walls would move out, depersonalisation was also a symptom for me, absolutely petrifying and I couldn't explain it the brilliant lady they sent me too, she was a psychotherapist and told me how I felt, I was really lucky that she taught me to breathe and take control, are you seeing anyone
Tori88 AP1014
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Now when you say obsession, do you mean you are preoccupied with the anxiety and the images in your visions? Or do you mean you are obsessed with something else that then causes the panic attacks and anxiety?
I am sorry you are going through this, I haven't ever experienced something like this, however I have a close friend who did, and it was really hard and scary for them, and only until they spoke to a doctor about it, did they get the help they personally needed. I imagine you probably feel scared and alone, but people do want to help you, reach out to family members or people you trust.
Things such as new stressors in life, stressful events, certain medications, and hormones can cause different conditions that sound simular to what your experiencing. But it can also just come out of nowhere too, and getting the right medical help, may help you figure it all out! Being honest with your doctor is important too, and understandably hard when it comes to your own personal thoughts. I just want you to know, you are not alone, others have simular symptoms such as yours, and the first step is recognizing them and seeking help, which I think is very brave
AP1014 Tori88
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Thank you so much. This really helps! And Yes just obsessing and thinking of my vision like a giant canvas covering my eyes and that gives me anxiety. Like I am not in control or feel surrounded. That sounds dumb, but it is kind of true to an extent. You see through an image that almost engulfs you. I don't know why all the sudden that bothers me now but it does! Starting to get over it slowly, but surely.
Tori88 AP1014
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No I don't think that sounds dumb at all! What you are experiencing, and the thoughts and anxiety it's giving you, is very real to you, and I understand that, and I'm sure a doctor will understand that too. My friend who was experiencing something simular, would have the same obsession with what she was seeing when she closed her eyes, and it was very frustrating for her because she knew she was also getting confused over it. The human brain is really something, and anxiety can trigger many different possible defense mechanisms we have in ourselves, in attempt to rid ourselves of the anxiety. Hopefully you and a doctor can find different ways to relieve those thoughts and feelings. There is hope! Definitely, until you can find a doctor to help, if you already meditate or know any breathing exercises, or have any hobbies that help you relax such as art, writing or hiking, utilize those to help relieve any stress!
AP1014 Tori88
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