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Hi everyone! I'm a 19 year old girl that just recently finished her freshman year of college. About two months ago, I had a pretty severe existential crisis that involved a lot of dread of dying and overall purpose. I eventually got out of this rut and was able to return to my previous self. This lasted for a while until about a week ago. Not only did the crisis come back, but it came back much stronger. I have been experiencing extreme anxiety and will wake up everyday feeling sick and scared, often with my hands and body shivering uncontrollably. I have also been having feelings of not existing and of everyone else not existing. It probably hasn't helped either that I have been looking up philosophy on "no-self" and solipsism. The thoughts have never really bothered me before, but for some reason it's now all I can think about. I feel like my time is flashing by and I often spend most of my day crying and thinking on previously stated matters. I can't live like this. I have thought about killing myself, but would never want to cause that much harm to my family and my boyfriend. I just can't think of dying and forgetting my love for my family and boyfriend and losing all those moments I had with them, at the same time I don't want to exist because I keep having such emotional pain from this. What's wrong with me? Has anyone gone through this? How did you cope?
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