Is it possible

Hi Shadow.

I believe it is possible to win. It is a difficult struggle but beating depression and returning to normality, must make you feel like you are on top of the world.

Keep on going, we will all get there

Best Wishes

Madmouse

Wot is normality, at the mo i am terrified of how im feelin and of wot is goin on in my head i dont no how 2 live any more. Iv spent all day 2 day believin its goin 2 b my last day dont no if want it or not terrified 2 go home not feelin safe anyware. :cry:

Hi Shadow

I assume that you are taking meds and seeing your G.P regularly.

I have felt like I don't want to carry on, but i have always thought about those i would leave behind, so this has always stopped me from going any further.

I suppose when it comes to normality for me it is actually feeling on the same planet as other people.

Is everything ok at home?

do contact me if you need anyone to have a rant too.

This site i have found to be really good, it has shown me that i'm not the only one suffering from depression.

stick with it.

Best wishes Madmouse

hi folks

got a female friend who suffers from yearly spells of depression and finding this message board has given me a new insight into how i can best help. looks like i may have been doing things all wrong in the way i've tried to help it's not going to be easy for me i'm a pro active person who needs to learn to slow down and focus on what may be best way forward

Being a sufferer 4 the last 25years myself all u need 2 no is 2 b there 4 your friend when she needs u and let her no u will b ther 4 her when she needs it BUT at the same time dont over croud her and push her 2 far b patient let her do things in her own time and at her own pace. I no its hard but its twice as hard 4 a sufferer. Hope this helps and good luck she lucky 2 have a friend like u, not all of us have any1 2 turn 2. Hang in there.

Hi madmouse,

thanks 4 takin time 2 reply i not seein regular GP surgerfy all over place u never no who u goin c till u get ther if u can get an appointment meds am sick of takin hand full pills get throug day. Home cant go there not safe dont trust self and wot i , had fall out wit neighor she been on my back sinc i moved in 4years ago kept my mouth shut all this time but mon could no more she got me so mad and im scared 2 go back and wot i might say or do and it terrifies me im not a violent person it has all come ontop of a rough time am gettin 2 in therapy that i cant talk 2 any1 else so i cant explain this 2 any1 and they just think im over reactin about thingsi feel totaly trapped and ready 2 explode or worse.

Thanks shadow

I understand what your saying but its not easy i don't want to lose touch but she has locked herself away from family and friends. i try to phone and text every day but her mobile is switched off. I've left letters which i don't even know if she has read or how she has interpreted them. i don't want to give up i've known her for a long time but god it's difficult. I want my friend back and feel helpless

Hi macman, i no wot u sayin and it must b hard, iv also been in the sit your friends in and still find myself in the same situation quiet often still. I isolated myself from every1 never answ door phone letters or anyting i kept the curtains shut door locked made no noise blocked all doors and everythin (still do). Its nothin against any1nbut its the only way ifeel safe and have my own control of wot i want and only way i thought cold have space and people left alone. Idont mean 2 hurt or upset any1 but at the time i not c it and im sure your freind is the same and apreciates wot u r doin even if ther iis no responce. Stay in ther and dont give up. Mayb u can leave a small note just askin your friend just 2 let u no she is ok even if it just says yes thank u. At least u no she readin your notes and she nos u r there 4 her. Hope this helped a little and say strong.

Hi Shadow

Thank you my friend I have left numerouse notes and expressed my concerns and feelings towards her. Today I got a scribbled note asking me why I have expressed my feelings now after all of the problems she has caused me and the things she has put me through. I would do anything to help her but I won't lie.I just need to know she's making it safe and sound. If I can get through to her I would like to point her at this type of site she needs to know those she writes to have had similar experiences it has to make life more bearable.

Up to now I'm on of the lucky ones but it's good to know your out there

Safe journey my friend

Hi macman.

We rhere 2 help each other if we can its not an easy illness 2 live with on your own and with sites like this we dont have 2. If it helps im here 2 listen if u want 2 rant. I also understand its not easy 2 live with some1 with depression ( we can b very stubon and unpredictable and not sure of things sometimes but we sure dont mean 2 hurt our friends and familys intentionaly).Takee care.

Hi Shadow

I pray to god your right I have felt like giving her a good shake to pull her out of it of course I know that wont work and unless she is prepared to meet and talk to me this would be impossible anyway. Reading the messages on this site and doing some other research has given me a greater awareness of how to approach the whole thing. I know that in the past she has been on Meds for this problem but I also understand that like many others when she feels a little better she stops taking them. I don't know how these meds effect individuals but I know she would preffer not to have to take them all the time.

Its the middle of a Sunday afternoon and I would dearly love to have a chat with her I have left her a very private e-mail adress thinking she may feel she cold talk to me that way but no joy so far.

I hope you are in a good place yourself right now because I really do need to draw some strength from you.

Am here 2 help and listen when ever i can and hope some of advice and experience has been help 2 u. Take care.

Hi Shadow

I have had my friend talk to me at last she has had enough common sense to see her GP who has doubled her meds dosage but she now says that they are making her sick. She believes that her GP is going to refer her to a specialist and is asking for bloods. I need to try and make sure she keeps her appointments don't know how I will manage that.

She is sleeping a lot, seems a bit distant and is choosing to speak only to those who don't push her. I believe believe that the way she handles stress to be an important factor in her case but dare not say so it's too early. At least I am no longer frozen out and she has given me a phone number that I can use to contact her. I have some light at the end of the tunnel.

I hope you are moving forward as well

I have no other way of wishing you well and thanking you

Hi Shadow

Sorry for not replying sooner, my computer has been having a bit of a mare.

I know what you mean about taken meds all the time, but i do think they're the best way to go. I have been prescribed Lithium now as well as sertraline. The lithium is a very good mood stabalizer.

You said that you didn't feel safe going home, are there any friends you can go and stay with for a while, until you get back on your feet.

Whan it comes to seeing your G.P, perhaps you can ask if it is possible to see the same G.P.

I guess that you have seen the local mental health team.

Stick with it.

Madmouse