Is it still rocd what's happening?
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When I met the girl I'm with we didn't click right away and I was just out of a almost 2 year relationship but I was starting to fall for her. I eve told her I loved her and she said it to me and she still makes me happy. Here's my problem tho. Even though I want to be there I woke up one morning when we actually became a thing and didn't really fee like texting her back and I thought I should love her more then I wondered fmdo I love her and good led it and got even more anxious and ruminate about it and question myself started checking to see if I liked her or tried to feel love but couldn't because of anxiety or at least I think. But recently as I have been going through this for soo long now almost half a year. I've gotten to stages where I keep getting anxious that I dont want to be woth her now and when I think aBout it I get depressed and when I see my gf I get happy but the more time I see pend with her I feel depressed around her. I can't feel love or happy just really depressed and feel disconnected. I don't feel in love anymore but I really want to be. I want us to work. I keep thinking it's how I feel now and that it isn't ocd. And it's hoe I feel becsuse to me it is how I feel even tho I want to be with her because she's amazing and I love her laugh and her smile and she is just those best tho behind I can ask for but I can't feel love. I think of her and dobt feel anything and im worried my relationship is causing me tho he hinge be depressed or is it just my mind thats been making me think and feel like this now, I really don't know anymore. I want it to be ocd but I dot know. I have had other ocd growing up like hocd scared of death. Germs etc. But this just feels real and tge fact that I can't ve myself around her and just feel depressed I stead of happy and cant feel what I want I worry. But right now I check and ask myself do I want to break up and I don't get anxious anymore and it worries me. Or does it.. I don't really get anxious I don't on really get intrusive thougjts anymore bit I'm still thinking about it. Is it possible that all of this had convinced me I dont want to be with my gf anymore. Why am I dontontepressed around her? Thank you
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curtis75002
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Also when I get anxious about not wanting to be with her. I get down and depresed and then I'll feel like I dont want to be there. I don't know if it's my ocd if it is that or I've convinced myself to feel like this or it is just how I feel now even tho I dont want it to be.
curtis75002
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An ideas I'm wondering if it's the depression making me feel this way or its my relationship thats made me depressed I don't think it is ocd anymore. I get anxious when I think of her and I know I want to be with her or do I cuz I fount it and get anxious as a write it I just keep getting anxiety about being with her. And axioms feeling that I dont want to be with her. When I see her I'm happy but the longer I spend there I end up becoming depressed and feeling like I fo t want to be woth her. Is this ocd can it make me feel this way can thus depression make me feel like I dont want to be with her. I get anxious and keep doubting wetter I'm right or s right for me I hate it. Because I really want my feelings if love back.