is it weird that i don't wanna get better ? i find comfort in being sad.
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feels like i'm not suitable for a healthy life . i don't think i'm depressed .
cause sometimes i feel happy for some moments and it feels like everything is getting better , it's like i was never sad , it's like i made the whole thing up
then the slightest bad thing happen and i fall back into that hole of suicidal thoughts .
it's even more pathetic that i can't cut myself deep enough to feel better
but it's somehow comforting .
being sad
i don't know the reason i feel this way
and no i can't talk to nobody neither i can seak a therapist cuz simply i got no one to talk to
everyone around me is the reason m feeling this way
the reason i think about killing myself everyday
no one takes mental health seriously and i don't think that they ever will.
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sam18386 sarah91794
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hi sarah, having being diagnosed with PTSD and been left with an issue that countless amount of counselling has finally really helped to combat, i feel i can safely see how bad the state of mental health is for people. you need to work out what it is about people that makes you cut your skin? you say you're not depressed, hmm are you sure? when i did this i was told it WAS a sign of depression, doing this made me really scared of how ill i was. the worst time for me was during counselling last year, i bought a bottle of alcohol to smash it to use the glass to slash my wrists. THAT was my turning point, i knew then i was ill. talking halved how bad i felt, that and grounding techniques. what happened to me originally was huge! YOU need to admit you're ill, that you want help and that you finally want to change! until you do that you're right, you won't recover. think of me, rape (multiple) blighted my life since aged 19, that and inappropriate sexual touch, but i wanted my life back. you have a choice to make for yourself. look after you.
jan34534 sarah91794
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sometimes people find comfort in feeling sad and depressed because they get so used to feeling that way. and they don’t know the way out.
An unhealthy comfort zone.
they falsely feel like it’s their natural state to be like that.
Also it’s a reason for them to not get help or try to get better. it takes a certain amount of effort to find help and to work at it.
you sound very depressed and there is help out there. You just have to make the effort and find the resources.
Your life could be a lot better. Local communities, churches, state resources, have free or low cost counseling and resources.
You don’t have to let those that made you feel this way take your power away. When you give in, they win!
Fight for yourself!