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Well I am not alone. I have read all I could find out about so called anxiety and depression. I believe that I have lead a full, complete life according the cultural standards imposed during my existence. Colleges, military including time at West Point, Vietnam Infantry,
A life long friend since ages 5&6 and married 52 years. 2 Children and 2 Grand Children. Grew up with Shoah survivors in multi cultural Brooklyn NY. What is important to note, a childhood coma, diagnosed retarded or fitting under the Asperger's Spectrum. IQ over 165 yet lacking in the EQ department.
Always unexplained Synchronicity or Coincidence guiding my life. It seems as though every endeavor from engineer to body mechanic to horse racing, to operating 3 stores of interior decorating. At some points in my existence questioning why? Not for the prestige, nor the money, but probably proving that I was capable of functioning. I made others wealthy a few times, feeling some remorse but I did give opportunity to others.i spent 4 years as a witness in front of a Federal Grand Jury explaining early computer systems, political affiliations, and real life business activities.All brought on because of my ability to earn money. ASSPURGERS front and center. Never smoked or did illegal drugs or alcohol. Food allergies and prescription side affects incapacitating me.
As though my existence depended on past lessons learned and future anxieties. As though keeping the mind busy blocked any of life's pain or hurt. Often to smart for my own good, having to lesson or lower my vocabulary and not speak down to others. Now in my 75 year on earth, questioning the episodes and mystery's occurring over the years. To write a non fiction book, who would read since our culture is aimed at religion or supernatural unexplainable, Which I find dubious. or the stagnation or limited intelligence of most people. I firmly believe in a democratic socialist governing. So here I sit with a broken heart wondering why, or how Never perfection , but why America slipped into a almost monarch state of affairs. If our purpose is preservation of the species, to express oneself, Why is life so hard, or difficult.
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