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Hey, I have been on sertraline for about 6 months, but only been taking 200mg for about 3 months. I ran out of tablets on Wednesday and cant get more until Tuesday. I feel awful, shaky, dizzy and totally out of it. It is like being drunk constantly, but not happy drunk it is a horrible feeling. I want to know if it is dangerous, because if it isn't I don't know if I will bother going back on them just to feel like this again if I want to come off them. I don't like having to rely on medication to be 'normal'. Has anyone else felt unsure wether to continue their meds or not? I feel like there isn't much point living if I am going to feel like this all the time. Without meds im a mess, emotions all over the place, and with meds im a zombie, and cut to feel pain, just so I can feel something. I have also recently found out from my boyfriend that he feels like I 'chip away' at him, which is not a nice thing to feel, and I don't know why I am bothering anymore. He also said he will leave me if I cut again. I just recently told him about the cutting and he flipped, which I understand but the way I have made him feel makes me feel like a worthless piece of shit that is just going to drag everyone else down with me if I carry on like this. He thinks im sick, as I replaced cutting with nipping myself til I bleed, hair pulling and head banging. I know how pathetic this all sounds and I am sorry but I really want to get some advise. Me and my partner have been together nearly 7 years. This depression and anxiety has only been going on a few years but this year it has went extreme and I don't think my bf can cope. I have no idea hat to do and any advice would be most appreciated. I don't think he understands or believes mental illness and thinks I make things worse for myself as I over think and overreact and always think the worst, but I have tried to explain I cant help this and as much as I would love to not give a shit I do, when he leaves the house, to me he is dead, and point blank that is what goes on in my head, regardless how much I tell myself im being stupid, I know its stupid but I cant help it and he thinks I choose to think this way and I must say it pisses me off sometimes. I know this must be extremely hard for him too but I dont know what to do to help him. He is not willing to come to any of my therapy sessions with me or google my illnesses (I also have OCD and 'suspected BPD'' ) and I don't know what to do. Sorry to ramble, like I said im a but off my rocker at the moment. Thanks
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