Is THIS a sign of depression?

Someone who is honest! J don't feel well it's taken a lot to push me to this. My rapist told me last night i should do this. I feel just so sad, embarrassed and guilty about doing anything so stupid. I am trying to talk to someone about what happened years back. I still can't get my head round being raped and what it has done. I do have PTSD. I have been told i have Narcissistic personality disorder. Does anyone please know what this is. I feel terrible now.

Sam - whoa, hang on a moment! Your RAPIST told you LAST NIGHT you should do this?

1/ WHY are you communicating with your rapist?

2/ Have you made any formal complaint about what was done and who did it?

3/ There are no statutes of limitations on sexual assault in the UK

4/ Does the IVF situation involve your rapist?

You are traumatised. The hair cutting could be an attempt to make yourself unattractive to the opposite sex. it is also an expression of self-loathing. I would suggest your turmoil is connected to the fact you have not recieved any justice or assistance after your ordeal. Are you seeing any docs re: mental health?

Hi Wayne, i will reply to your questions 1 at a time! Firstly, i didn't communicate on THAT level with that thug, this was a flashback set off by comments in a letter i saw on Thursday night after being in hospital all day Thursday, i didn't want to hear it, you had been really ill, i think the hair cutting was the last straw! Secondly, a formal complaint about what? If you mean the hospital i am going to send a letter to an ombudsman that the hospital stupidity sent to me in their letter. If you mean the assault, he was jailed for a while as he did this to 2 girls under 16 he also was beaten up, oh i wonder why? Your third question was about statutes, what do you mean? Lastly obviously IVF has NOTHING to do with my rapist, but it was used as an excuse to stop me having IVF, as i was told i used it as a tool. Also 1 person in that department said i was Narcissistic, the letter clearly stated that, not only that but she also got my doctor to agree, so i was denied the IVF! It's dreadful. My kind sister has suggested that i work with her a few hours a day, to stop me feeling depressed which may take my mind off it a bit. I feel forced to do this via the job centre, even though i'm not completely well! If i can get it regularly, i was seeing a PTSD counsellor to cope with the assault or should i say assaults!

Oh and thanks for replying you're very kind!

Hi again Sam - different story when you supply the information. Your hair will grow back.

Yes, i had no idea, if you could send me some proper information i would appreciate it. I am scared stiff that because this has been muted we'll never be able to adopt. We have fought for children for over 6.5 years! Thanks very much. Any information would be really appreciated!

Here's an article about it ~ and you really don't seem like these traits describe you. Can you request your notes, to find out how and when it was diagnosed? These disorders should only be diagnosed by a specialist, not a GP. If you query it, ask to get a full assessment, which will determine whether you were misdiagnosed. These disorders need detailed personality evaluation information to diagnose, and it's amazing the number of times I've seen people flippantly misdiagnosed without even knowing that it was a possibility.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/conditions/narcissistic-personality-disorder

Hi Henosaurus, i looked at my hospital notes and funnily enough it was a fertility counsellor who said this. I couldn't believe my eyes, my doctor laughed when i asked her and my counsellor i see now wouldn't entertain the idea that i had this because if i did she wouldn't see me. It's vindictiveness, i have now written to the parliamentary ombudsman service about this! I am still disgusted to this day 3.5+ years later!

Sam ~ wow, that's absolutely horrible, I'm so glad you're complaining, and I hope this fertility counsellor sees some harsh consequences. NPD needs to be diagnosed by a psychiatrist after a very detailed process, you obviously don't have it, and misdiagnoses like these are totally irresponsible.

I'm so glad you challenged it, and hope you'll be able to go through with the IVF now.

Hi Hen, you have made my year! I would give my last penny to people on the street rather than use it myself and inl have NO empathy? Yeah right!!!