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My name is Ania and I'm 30 weeks pregnant. This is my baby number 3 and this time it's a boy. The girls I have are11 and 6. I wanted to get some advice from woman who maybe go through the same thing. My therapist says that I have a severe anxiety brought on by hormones. But I can't just stop thinking that maybe something else is going in with me mentally. Any opinion would be greatly appreciated.
I think that mu symptoms have been building up for last 3 months but I could manage and they didn't cost me any serious distress. But I feel as everything has been turned upside down on December 31st when I started feeling like I'm going absolutely crazy. From the moment I open my eyes till the moment I close them I feel as my surroundings feel strange and unfamiliar, I recognize everything I just can't relate to it in a familiar way and there is constant dread feeling around me. Once I woke up from nap and could have sworn that nothing around me was real, like a dream or different dimension. It was completely freaking me out and all I could think of was how do I go back to normal and what is wrong with me? I can not stop having racing thoughts about having some mental illness that is just coming out now when I'm pregnant, I'm obsessing I have schizophrenia. I have enormous trouble concentrating, focusing on anything, other than wondering what is the matter with me. I get completely petrified of the thought that there is something wrong. My mind won't stop and I can't snap back to feeling normal. I worry about what happens to my kids if I don't get better and that I won't be able to take care of the baby when he comes. I feel like I'm loosing it and have no control over my mind, like at any point I will stop functioning. I have taken multiple online tests for different mental illnesses to see if I fit any of them. I have a constant mental discomfort with a petrifing feeling of dread. I feel like a zombie in autopilot who just tried to get through. Nothing relaxes me or the things that used to be pleasant to me don't feel same anymore. I can't enjoy my favorite shows or things I used to do cause the feeling of dread makes me just want to close my eyes and stay that way. Sometimes nothing seems really and I wonder if I'm really and if I really exist. Everything becomes a trigger to feel weird and start obsessing. Often times drags or I loose track of time. I am lightheadedness and often my head spins almost like feeling high. I have brief moments of feeling somewhere normal and it doesn't less and shortly I'm back to.misery. I'm having intrusive violent thoughts that I can't stop. Overall I feel like in some sort of trans that I can not snap out of.
All this has taken over my life and I feel very hopeless. Does that sound like depression and anxiety???
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