Is this my life now?
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i joined this page 6 years ago at some point in those 6 years i sorted my head out or so i thought i felt like i had hold of my anxiety and i was in charge, the last 10 months have been hard i haven't had time to write my lists ( these normally help with my anxiety and ocd) I'm angry all the time because my heart is always racing I'm tired from all the over thinking I'm doing and i feel alone i have no one to talk to my husband is there but not really there our relationship is struggling. I'm moving house again away from my family and friends and that's definitely added to the stress. i have routine and that keeps me going but its slipping i can feel everything slipping. I'm trying to be a good wife and a good mom but my life is ruled by this anxiety and its effecting the way i live i cant sit down and spend time with my kids because my head is always telling me there's stuff to do and it has to be done now then my hearts pumping. iv reread this post 5 times before posting. i just want my life back i accepted that my anxiety was part of me but now i feel like its more than that I'm part of the anxiety.
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maxine32453 Guest
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I'm the same as you.
my story goes as followers.
i hope there's hope for both of us.
Hello, I am pretty new to the group. Looking for some help/advice. I am 26 years old and since I can remember I have suffered from sinus tachycardia (fast heart but normal rhythm)
Before this year I was over weight and lead a very sedentary lifestyle.
From August last year I have lost 25kg.
January this year I was laying in bed and my heart rate shot up to 172, I began freaking out and getting hot and sweaty. I went to a&e and they took me into resuscitation, did lots of results and my ECG just showed sinus tachycardia, they started me on a beta blocker (Bisopronol) and sent me home the next day, with a 24 heart monitor and a heart scan scheduled.
My heart monitor showed my average heart rate was 101, with a high of 160 and a low of 92.
My heart scan showed my heart structurally was absolutely fine.
In February I began doing intense cardio and tried to ignore my fast heart rate (sometimes failed and had panic attacks) since being in the beta blockers my resting heart rate has reduced.
I don't have any side effects from the beta blocker at all but I do not want to rely on this medication forever.
I decided I would try and wean myself off the medication.
I was on 7.5mg, went to 5, went to 2.5 then went to 1.25 before stopping all together. 1st of July was my final dose. 2nd of July my heart was higher than usual but nothing that worried me. However, yesterday my heart rate was insanely high and I had a huge panic attack, laying in bed It was 130 and walking in from the car (200 yards) it was 160.
Is this because my body will never cope again without the beta blockers?
I feel like all the exercise I have done to try and reduce my resting heart rate was for absolutely nothing.
Without the medication my heart is faster than before when I didn't need medication. I can't comprehend that 😦
Any advice? Losing the will to live xx
jan34534 Guest
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I know this isn’t a cure but have you ever considered speaking with a counselor regarding the anxiety? It could help you a lot! sometimes we just have to put things aside and not worry so much about getting them done. It’s just not worth what the anxiety does. There are things that can wait. Spend time with your kids because I know from experience they grow up so fast and are gone before you know it. That’s why when mine were growing up, I got down on the floor with them and played games, laughed, read stories, and spent quality time with them.
Dishes can wait. Bills can wait. House cleaning can wait. Etc. it’ll get done. those things will be with you for the rest of your life. But your children won’t.Life is too short.
when you spend time with your kids it creates such a strong bond that lasts the rest of your life! as I got a little older and look back, I don’t think about any of that other stuff except the time I spent with my children.relax. Breathe. be grateful. And enjoy!