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was wondering if ROCD can take many forms? I feel as if mine has changed. When I first started experiencing ROCD. I had thoughts that I didn't love my husband and it sent me into a panic. I even had a panic attack and wanted to leave. However, now I get anxiety when I say to myself that I do love my husband. Is this normal? I feel almost calm whenever I say I don't love him to myself. Could it be I'm afraid of loving? I want nothing more than these thoughts to go away. I hate it and I'm filled with so much guilt and shame. When I cry, I really, really cry. I want to rip my brain out and scratch off my skin. I shouldn't feel this way about my husband. I feel like I'm losing my mind. My anxiety spikes when I'm with my husband or look at his photos. Is this normal? I want to be happy WITH my husband. I'm just not sure if this is even ROCD. I know love is a choice but I can't help but have anxiety when I tell myself I love my husband. I so badly want to love him and be around him as normal again. Other times I feel nothing and that freaks me out. Also, I've been having thoughts about my ex? Which I haven't thought about in a long, long time. Is this normal for OCD? I get thoughts like, "what if I still love him?" Or "what if I am attracted to him?" Even though when we were together I know I didn't! It makes me anxious having these thoughts. Any feedback would be appreciated. Thank you
Also, could crying uncontrollably be a symptom of anxiety? I'll cry so hard I'll almost vomit. Some times I'll scream or I'll just cry out loud. Also, I have a numb/tingling sensation in my lips, chin, part of the left side of my face, and jaw? I don't have the usual anxious feeling in my gut. I also get these frequent cold chills. Are these normal?
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