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Hi all 🤗
It's been such a bad day! I feel so sorry for everyone around me, I've tried to pretend I'm ok today and had a few drinks to get in the right frame that people expect! Unfortunately it's backfired! I've sneaked out of my stepdaughters house, via the garden gate, come home and broke down!
Within an hour or so, my husband and 25 yr old son came home worried about me, but I made them go back to the party, saying I'd feel better!
But I don't feel better, in fact I tore open a razor and shredded my leg! That made me feel better and I kind of had an out of body experience before falling asleep!
I've just woke up and stripped the bed and put the bloody sheets into wash and had a shower!
Unbeknown to me, my son is asleep on the settee, and I'm now waiting for my husband to come home and say "f*** this, I've had enough"
There's nothing anyone can say on here, but I just needed to let it out, if people around me know how crap I'm feeling and voice it, I'm frightened of what they'll say!
Sorry for being such a missery 😔
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