It's Been 2 months.... This is my story

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Hi guys! These past 2 months have been agony, I actually don't recall the exact time it happened but I do remember going to the bathroom and seeing some blood and a tiny bump down there but I wasn't in any pain... But then skip forward a week and every time I had a BM there would be slight pain and maybe for an hour after. A week later even worse, it was like glass coming out and I would have to dig my nails into my arms to distract myself from the pain and after I couldn't sit for hours as it was throbbing down there and the creams didn't help, even put apple cider vinegar and nothing. I would need to schedule my BMs the later in the day the worse, I would be pacing in my small apartment in agony (thank god I live on my own) it was like it was on fire.

I have a high pain threshold I believe, as the pain was so bad that I even considered going to the ER but I would persevere. I'm going to the specialist in a week and even though the pain is now a 6 instead of a 10, I need something done!!!

I've cancelled my overseas holiday in July with friends as I fear this will occur at least every second day that I'll be in pain. I love travelling so this has killed me!!! I will tell the specialist that I need the top treatment for this, I haven't taken a day off work yet but lots of sleepless nights. I need this taken care off, it hasn't even made me lose weight as all I want to do is stay home and eat (at least if I lost weight, something good would come from if) I'm going to be adamant about surgery, nothing like this has happened in 28 years and no idea why it has now but I refuse to wait any longer to get rid of it... I need to travel and live my life happily, the last 2 months have been hell! Thank god for this forum!!!

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    I have a posti wrote out before with some tips that may help you....I'll try to get it to you later today......your situation sounds a lot like mine though.......I would try to arrange to get the sphicteronomy surgery.......if it wasn't for that, I'd still be in bed!!!
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      Thank you! It's insane to think this issue has taken over my life... I would go to the gym 4 times a week and in the last 8 weeks I've gone once and cancelling a trip I booked 6 months ago is so beyond frustrating. I still try to go out and party with friends, thank god I'm single at this stage (never thought I would hear myself say that). What surgery would you recommend? I don't even want to entertain Botox... I'll tell the doc to Give me the good stuff. I have a skin tag but not sure if it's best to keep it or get it off, it's always swollen so not sure. Oh the problems we have in life....
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      Yeah it truly does suck. As I said in my last comment, I would sugget the sphincteronomy surgery.

      That being said, I am attaching a post that I put on somebody else blog. In this post, I was recommending to the person to get the surgery, as well as other methods to try to try to ease your pain. I hope this helps you out and never give up. :

      I would definately get it done, especially if you have dealt with it for a whole year. I had a chronic fissure, and after a month, decided to have the surgery. It was the best decision of my life. I am not going to lie to you, it is a bit painful right after surgery but if you can endure the pain of a fissure, it is not that much different. I posted this before....this basicallly explains how i felt throughout the surgery and after.

      I first want to give you a lot of credit for deciding to do the surgery...It is not an easy desicion, as there are some stories online that can discourage you from getting it, but in the end in my opinion it it better. 

      So basically, this is how it went down with my surgery. I had to fast the day before the surgery because they had to put me under anesthesia. I went in, waited, and then they put me under and the surgery was done. I woke from the surgery with morphine in my system, although once I woke up it had worn off for the most part. They basically told me I could get another dose of morphine, which would basically knock me out again, or I could stay up and move to the other room to wait until I was ready to leave. So, i skipped the next dose of morphine and went to the other room. As I was laying on the bed, the pain bagan to set in. The next part may scare you a bit and discourage you, but getting through this part is just part of the process of gettting better. So when the pain started to settle in, the paiin almost flt worse then the fissure pain itself. I was not only dealing with the pain from the fissure, but from the incision and cuts that were done form the surgery itself. This being said, you have to take into consideratino that the surgery is cutting into your sphincter muscle, so pain will come, but this is with any surgery. Unfortunately, with this surgery, it is in a very sensitivie area so the pain will be a little more intense. Some things I did in the hospital to deal with the pain was put ice on my butt, I bit down on a washcloth to decrease the tension that I would put into my butt area and to transfer the tension to my jaw biting into the cloth. They did give me percoset, but honestly it didn't help me a bit. I still felt the pain until I was able to fall asleep. The lady next to me said that the percoset made her feel that the ceiling was the floor and the floor was the ceiling, so I guess it affects some people differently than others. I also will recommend listening to music right after or watching a movie to distract yourself from the pain. SO that was basically it from the hospital. I couldn't leave the hospital until I could pee though,  which was not easy since I had so many drugs in my system and could  not really push to hard as it was painful and I did not want to upset the area.

      Eventually I peed and was able to leave. Then, I took some percoset that night and slept. The next day I felt no pain, as I did not poop at all, and as with before the surgery,  the pain  only comes when  you poop. 

      So the day after that I had to go to the bathroom. The first time you go to the bathroom will be very painful, almost more painful than pooping with just the fissure because you are trying to poop through a fissure and a surgery, but that comes with  the territory. I will not hide that I felt like I was going to puke the pain was so bad WHILE pooping. I also recommend listening to music while pooping as this distracts the pain  and gives some motivation  not to be afraid. The reason on put emphasis on the WHILE is beause after the pain is very dull and nothing compared to the throbbing unimaginable  pain of an anal fissure. Within  the next two weeks, I progressively felt myself getting better, and by the 2nd week I went back to the doctor and he gave me the ok that I was all healed up.

      I never had any incontinence, although the only thing I still have is that its a bit harder to hold in my farts sometimes, but that is it....As far as the gauze, I only changed it because I would leak sometimes..I ended up just buying adult diapers at the store and used those until I stopped leaking. 

      As far as numbing injectino you asked about, the only  thing I was aware of was the anastesia I was on.

      As far as food after surgery, I just kept to a well balanced diet. I take metamucil fiber supplement every day since, and I squat on the toilet all the time now. Make sure not to take too much fiber as this can irritate the area.

      Hope this was enough information for you, and I really wish you the best of luck with  your surgery next week.....Noone should  have to go thorugh anything like this, but thank god we have means to take care of it with surgery....

      Also, this is another post i put that explains some things that you might want to try in addition to the surgery....

      Here are some suggestions I have for you to help you through:

      1. Try somee zinc oxide in the form of calmoseptine which has menthol to soothe the area down there as well. Calmoseptine can be bought at almost any local drugstore and can be bought online too.

      2. Try squatting when going on the toilet instead of sitting. This is a much  helathier position and the poop sometimes will just slide out,  no pushing or straining involved.

      3. I would definately take a fiber supplement, specifically metamucil  is what I take evveryday,  in ordr to allow your stools to be soft and to allow them to pass thorugh easily. THis being said, with any fiber supplemetn, you must drink lots of water when using them, or they will not work veffectively. Also, do not take too much as too much fiber can irritate your bowels on the way  out and diarreah actually does worse down there.

      5. I would recommend getting a sphicteronomy surgery if htings dont get better. I waited it out, gave up, had the surgery, and was able to heal within about two weeks. I had a chronic fissure, so I knew where you are ocming from with v all the pain and discomfort.

      Try listening to music to distract your mind a bit, especially when going to the bathroom. If you are in writing pain, distract yourself with a movie or TV show right after. Also, to prevent myself from screaming and from putting more stress in the area down  there, i bit down on a washcloth in order to make the tensions with my teeth instead of my sphicter muscle.

      Hope this helps!!!

      Good Luck!!!



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    I hear you! I've taken 1 day off work when I literally couldn't walk it was that bad! I really should have taken more time off but just had to try and manage it.

    I went from 16st 1 to 14st 3, although some of that was the original bout of food poisoning, the rest was because I have tried not to eat as much so don't pass as much.

    I'm persevering with Morris's method but have found its stinging a bit more but I'm hoping that might mean it's healing.

    Failing this I think I might have to go down the injections route possibly.

    Hope you get well soon.

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    I know exactly how you feel, I've still been going to gym otherwise I would feel even worse than I already do and have to really dose myself up on a Saturday to play rugby but even that's starting to suffer.

    I'm going to Vegas in 6 weeks and I can only hope and pray that I'm healed by then or it's going to be one uncomfortable flight!

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    Sorry, forgot to say, having not been down the surgery road as of yet (touch wood) I can't really suggest anything like that. I haven't yet spoken to anyone who has either.
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       Sorry to hear that you've been going through it !

    I was diagnosed with a chronic fissure over 10 years ago, and maybe some of what I learned might help you. Way back then I found that walking would help ease the pain that comes a few hours after a bowel movement. I'd walk for about 15 minutes before the pain went, but if I then stopped, back it came within minutes. 

     As I am sure you will read, there are lots of helpful tips like squatting instead of sitting when going to the loo and taking hot baths. BUT the thing that has kept me pain free for the last 2 years is taking LAXIDO powders and LACTULOSE daily.

     One of my GP's a few years ago told me I should have a lateral shincterotomy, after " helpfully" saying , I wouldn't want to be down for that op ! Shortly after, my fissure became infected, if I thought the pain could be bad before, then this reached a new level. I was given tramodol, which didn't even touch the pain.

      I then saw another GP who said to take up to 8 sachets of laxido ( other brands are available) daily. She said that it didn't work like some laxatives, and could be taken long term. What a relief ! My poo went very soft and took the strain out of going and the pain soon went. I then saw the consultant about the operation, but she agreed that an alternative was to take laxido, and she added lactulose to my prescription.

     Now my condition was due to my anus being very tight, and it still is, but I now take usually 2 sachets of laxido with lactulose daily, I add one of those fizzy vitamin C tablets to make it more palatable . I have been pain free for 2 years now !

    I know that I have to take this for the rest of my life, but both the consultant and GP are happy for me to do this as an alternative to having the lateral sphincterotomy. Oh, another thing is that I keep a couple of  MICRALAX enemas with me in case of emergency constipation. I haven't needed them, but years ago when I had a prolapsed disc and was taking bucket loads of dihydrocodeine, I became very constipated and going to the loo after 12 days it felt like trying to pass a brick ! I am sure this is what started the fissure. I got the micralax off the doctor and next time I was constipated, a quick squirt up there, and it turns to liquid. I also bought some syringes to help apply any creams, as instructions usually say insert a finger up there, well i am so tight I couldn't even get my little finger up there, but DON'T use a syringe to apply GTN. I did once and nearly passed out !

      I hope some of this will help and wish you all the best.  Mark.

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    I can totally agree with everything you are saying, I have felt my life as been put on hold with so many things, and the worse part is that ive been unemployed for the past 5 months and thank god i was able to have surgery a month ago, before getting a new job. I am starting my new job on Monday, I cannot go another day without work. I am still in some pain and not sure when its going to end. Although doctor says it takes time and will be a few weeks. Its really itchyevery day.. so im assuming that is a GOOD THING,, maybe healing is in process.. Im trying to have faith I will be healed sooner than later becasue i would hate to be working and have so much pain. Its really exhausted my body and my self esteem.  Im also missing a family function this weekend which im pretty bummed about.

    I have black circles under my eyes and have put on weight as well. Even though im eating more healthier, its all the stress from this pain that has had my body in a shock. Loss of hair as well. Yes its nice to know we are not alonerolleyes and if we pray for eachother prayer can also do wonders.  If anybody is reading this email...Please pray for us all and maybe we can get more prayers going through this Forum discussion. I believe there are miracles if you BELIEVE. Lets stick together. I will Pray at 8:00 Tonite Sharp for the next 4-days straight. Lets see how many prayers will join us ( ;

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    Thanks for all your comments.... I thought I was doing a bit better the last few days, my BM's have come out quite easily and the pain had subsided quite a bit. But then today happened and feels like day 1 again. I understand that many people would want to avoid surgery, but to be honest I have lived with this ongoing pain for 2.5 months and not sure how people have done it for a year plus. I'm going to my specialist in a week and telling her to put me in for surgery asap, i want the most EFFECTIVE treatment... as for the recovery pain ( this would occur with whatever surgery occurs, it's just made worse that its in a very sensitive area) it really doesn't bother me if theres pain after, as the pain is just so high now... at least i'll have some relief after surgery. As for side effects, I feel like those are a part of the process and certainly wouldnt deter me from getting the surgery. 

    I am an extremely active and sociable person, work for a fantastic firm, bit of a foodie and love adventures... I refuse to get depressed about something like this and would go to any measure to feel like myself again and I hope that many others are like me as well. Just remember as much as this thing is awful, there are worse things out there and at least there is surgery that can occur.


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      I hope it works for you, I would consider it soon if I'm being honest although the pain is slightly lessening the last couple of days.

      I read somewhere that someone lived with it for 8 years!!!!!!! Absolutely NO way is that happening.

      I'm still persevering with coconut oil baths and ointment and Dulcolax but fair play to Morris who was healed in 3 days. It's been almost a week and have got to say it's not doing what I had hoped at the minute.

      I would try the Botox injections but success rate is quite low compared to surgery apparently.

      Please let me know if you have the surgery and how it went etc.

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    So I went to the specialist on Monday about the fissure and she did say that it is a big fissure but she thinks its getting better. I've been feeling a bit better going to the bathroom, but there still discomfort after the BM's but much better than a month ago. So the specilialist said theres risks involved with the surgery and she recommends botox first as theres a 50% success rate. She has also suggested a colonoscopy which im booked in for, I just worry the prep day may be awlful as i have bad BM's normally but I would really like to see if its anything more serious. Has anyone had experience with a colonoscopy with a fissure? I think the purpose is to see whether I have crohnes or not.
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