It's my Birthday and I'll cry if I want to..... :-(
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Well today is my Birthday and I'm now 51, it should be a happy day for me but considering the hormone / mood rollercoaster ride from hell I fell that I'm on at the moment all I want to do is cry for no apparent reason...There are a few other things going on in my life at the moment and I guess with the perimenopause on top of everything else I can see the cracks of depression starting to appear...and I've been on the depression trail once before, not a nice place to be to say the least. Maybe I need a hobby or better yet a job, something to keep my mind active and not focussing on the negative stuff that's going on but sometimes just beng positive just doesn't cut it... I just feel kind of empty & lost like I'm in limbo and I don't know if this feeling is going to go away or it's just the way it's going to be...gotta love perimenopause...NOT! does any of this make sense? Rant over.
Take care everyone.
Anna
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goatgirl anna42582
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NuttyNan anna42582
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Thinking of you.
kristi63 anna42582
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goatgirl kristi63
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jackie95472 anna42582
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WoodsyChrissy anna42582
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you !!
Go into the Kitchen, put some music on while making coffee, and DANCE LIKE NOBODY'S WATCHING, silly, yes but it works hahaha
You need to get some anti depresants or at least some enxiety meds to help with the mood swings and the feeling like you want to kill somebody or just lock yourself up in your room and be alone.... Just hang in there ok,
May your day be blessed and Magical day, (hope somebody spoils you)
jo92050 anna42582
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madcow1964 anna42582
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You are exactly 4 weeks younger than me!
I can fully sympathise with what you are going through - I am still regular as clockwork and my period started 2 days ago. Didn't get the awful anger / depression last week like I normally do, but I am currently feeling very sick and shaky, as I was yesterday m orning.
I have spent several years feeling useless and worthless (self employed at home) so I jumped at the chance of a temporary part-time job close to home. However, it is scaring the proverbial out of me! It is so complex and has so much responsibility and I constantly doubt myself (even though my employer left a message to say that I was doing well and to keep it up).
Yesterday morning I was so shaky at work and I had a sudden dizzy spell where I had to grab the furniture to steady myself. It was instantly followed by a tide of heat and feeling very sick, and the feelings lasted all morning. The bones in my feet hurt too! Had some issues to deal with yesterday that I hadn't had before, and one customer was very abrupt and walked off before I could find what she wanted - so that added to my useless feelings! I need to be able to give myself a pep talk but I am constantly doubting my abilities to do this job correctly!
Feel very sick now as I get ready to leave for work, but I am full of sympathy for you - but you are not alone in this awful peri rollercoaster! I hope your day improves - try and be kind to yourself.
Big hugs x
middlemuddle anna42582
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Just remember 'this too will pass for everything surely does'. I know you will find a way to be happy again. I had a day of wallowing in menomisery earlier this week, achieved nothing but made me feel worse. I'm trying to be positive again, take my supps and find a way to put me higher up the priority list without being mean.
susan21149 anna42582
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jackie95472 susan21149
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anna42582
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Just wanted to say a big thankyou for my Birthday wishes and your words of support. AApologies for not getting back to you sooner but I have been pretty crook with the flu and I'm only just getting back on my feet.
At the moment I don't feel that bad, maybe I'm on the low end of the Peri coaster ride and things are manageable... I'm on the evening primrose oil, fish oil & vitamin E for my skin, taking St John's Wort for the anxiety/ depression/ mood swings and of course Mutivitamins for over 50's...if I take many more tablets I'll start to rattle lol
So just wanted you all to know that it made me feel loved by your words of support, it meant alot to me.
Hope this message finds you all well, take care & be kind to yourselves.
Anna x
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