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That if people addicted to alcohol do not have a reason to stop drinking...it becomes very difficult to stop drinking.
And I mean a reason that is threatening to that one persons life. Not so much health related...although could be health related...Like If I were told...if you drink again....you will die...I might be able to NOT drink.
I noticed with this income fear hanging over my head...I have been driven MORE not to drink...because it affects everything....my home...my bills....
EVEN thou I did drink....I still feel if I keep it limited to this one slip while I'm being tested that I can pull thru this...or pull the wool over their eyes (maybe that is my Borderline Personality Disorder talking).
I mean...who in the mental state I am in could be told you owe a government 3000 (that you don't have)...and have to have a lung and stomach scan all in 2 days...along with fighting with my Mom and problems in relationship at home. Enough was enough for me.
I mean wasn't it the therapists job when she mentioned that "I was all over the place" that last visit...to initiate a test for me the next day? To me it was pretty obvious I needed to calm down.
Even the tax lady I went to see yesterday said you are alot calmer today than you were the other day...yea, lady...I'm beatin down by alcohol....the other day I was 75 days sober and completely out of my mind.
But, because of this test holding over my head...I am able to not drink today or yesterday. I don't think I could have done it if so much wasn't at stake for me.
In the past, I've had the threats of being cut off by family..but since I'm sometimes antisocial...i didn't really care...that didn't really affect me honestly.
How do I say this gently? It seems most of us that drink on here...for the most part...yes, have upset family members...but its not really hitting the spot that we need it to...to make us quit.....my boyfriend was upset for 2 years that I was drinking...but that wasn't enough...and he was going to get my booze when I was unable to.....I needed something to hit home or my pocket.
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