Just diagnosed. Fighting off the depression, but feeling lost
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I received my test results last night that were positive for HSV2. I'm devastated really. Trying not to be but it's hard. Sadly I abstained from sex for almost 2 years and this is what happens when I chose to finally be with someone. He is being supportive and is also getting tested. The Dr says it's too soon to know if I would need suppression medicine because it's likely I don't experience another outbreak, but this pain is barely tolerable and honestly guys I'm scared. Scared for my future and what this means. I can't even imagine putting on normal clothes right now. Walking is even hard. Im afraid to talk to family or friends about it for fear of being judged. I mean all I did was be intimate with one person I cared for. How do I deal with this? Should I request the medicine? Is there something topical to use to ease the pain? Should I take lysine pills or oregano oil? Please, any support is appreciated. I've cried so much and I don't want to be a victim. I want to know the next steps. I just need guidance from people who can relate.
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unfortunate1 bpancp56633
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bpancp56633 unfortunate1
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danielle15132 bpancp56633
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I'm so sorry. Unfortunately that's the same thing that happened to me at 51 yrs old. I can't say don't be devastated cos I damn sure was, but what I will say is things will get better. I have had some real good times since being diagnosed. What helped me was accepting the fact that it's herpes not cancer, take care of myself, eat healthy, take meds/lysine and don't stress. I had no time for Ponting fingers and blaming him. All of that helped me to cope and it still does on bad days.
bpancp56633 danielle15132
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Thank you. I'm a natural worrier so I'll have to work on that. Any tips?
deon007 bpancp56633
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I was diagnosed by eyesight a few days ago now I'm waiting to get an actual test. It's so funny just like many others I've been with someone I truly cared for and bam I have herpes. All. I'm hearing is the doctor could be wrong but I know he's not. Talking about depressed. I haven't cried so much never in my life. I'm not suicidal but I could care less if I live. It's like my life is purposeless now. I'm trying to stay strong but it's getting the best of me though
peter88910 deon007
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deon007, i had the same feeling when i got this god damn virus. further, i developed anxiety disorder and later a major depressive disorder which almost terminated my life. but after 18 months i am a complete normal person again. back to normal life. if you ask me 18 months ago if i want to live, i will tell you not. but if you ask me again today, i will tell you i definitely want to live. and definitely do not want to die.
Are you a student ? If not, do u have a job that you need to attend everyday?
My best recommendation is you find something to distract yourself from thinking about this s**t.
Also, try to see a psychiatrist, while you are doing all the std tests. Because otherwise you will go crazy during the 3-months grace period of hiv test while you re sacred and waiting anxiously for result.
When you are very depressed, such as having suicidal thoughts, you can think this way .... say you will live 80 years, you are half way there, and herpes will affect 1 year out of your 80 years of life. for the rest of your life you will still have friends, work to do, and dreams to achieve.... would that 1 year impact your total 80 years of life ? definitely not !
bpancp56633 deon007
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I totally get it. Keep trying to push forward every day. I try to remind myself that I'm still the same person with the same qualities as before, but now I have something but it's manageable. Works sometimes, others I'm thinking nothing great. I do think counseling is a good idea and considering it myself. We HAVE to believe it will get better and that there's still purpose and opportunity at a full fulfilling life after this. We're not the only ones and finding so many forums with people discussing their experiences has been helpful and somewhat comforting. Im still so very new at this to give any advice, but hang in there. We'll be fine.
deon007 peter88910
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I'm a 12th grade math teacher and it sucka because I'm not giving my student my all because the thought of hsv 2 drives me crazy. Even after a doctor told me that's what it is I'm still hoping it's not its taking its toll on me
deon007 bpancp56633
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I never downed anyone with any std because I always knew it happens to people but I would never date anyone with one. Now look who's on the other side of the fence I'm 35 years old and probably will die lonely
unfortunate1 deon007
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peter88910 deon007
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Although I still feel regretful and worried sometimes, and a small wound at my south sometimes, I dont get any outbreaks anymore. Life is back to near normal. I cant sexually function due to psychological worrisome that I will infect someone , but thats fine I still have a job, my friends, my family. Life will continue.
sydney50563 bpancp56633
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peter88910 sydney50563
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JustMe2017 sydney50563
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This is how I feel..that I will never tell anyone and just stay single. People will judge and run the other way and tell all their friends. I don’t have time for it. I got diagnosed with H2 in Oct 2017 and only told the guy I was seeing at the time. His response alone makes me not want to tell anyone else again...😞
sydney50563 JustMe2017
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