Just Diagnosed With HSV2
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Hello all, I’ve been following all these posts on here like crazy since I’ve suspected I had the virus. I prayed and prayed I wouldn’t be one of the unlucky ones who’d have it, but unfortunately I was. I got my blood results back last week. My first outbreak wasn’t absolutely horrible. I didn’t even notice until I was washing in the shower. I’ve been so scared to even post, that makes all of this seem even more real but I just need some support. I’m only 20 years old, and going to be a nursing student but this has just been such a setback. I wish there was a cure. The nerve pain sucks more than the actual outbreak. I hate feeling my leg go numb or shooting pain in my thighs. I’ve only had 4 partners in my 20 years, and all of them I loved deeply and trusted. It’s so unfair but I know things could be way worse. But I’m stressed enough with nursing school and this has made me feel like giving up. I’ve already had a tendency for suicide and depression before but stopped taking antidepressants. I don’t think I’m too worried about the medicine because most people take millions of medications everyday for other conditions that are not curable.
I’ve been telling myself it’s just a skin condition. Everyone I’ve told has been extremely supportive except for one of my ex boyfriends, he’s been a huge piece of trash. I’d be more happy if I caught it from one of the exes I still cared about and who didn’t treat me like crap. I know lots of people freak out because they’re scared of finding someone who’d want to be with them, and although that’s a big concern of mine too I’m not worried about that anytime soon. I think I feel more guilt from looking at my grandmother and my father. I haven’t told them yet. I told one friend and she has been very unsupportive. I can say that this disease has taught me that life’s too short to be so unhappy but I still feel like ending it all and like what’s the point anymore. But I know in my heart I don’t want to do that. This is why I wanted to be a nurse. To help anybody in these situations and let them know theirs still hope. Plus, those babies I was planning on working with might need me and I can’t waste it all on a stupid skin condition.
The worst thing is, I think I may have got it when I was raped. That would hurt me the most. I’m so scared of lashing out anybody but I know this is my fault. I just found out and I think I need to take it easier on myself. And let myself know it’s okay to cry, it’s okay to be depressed, and it’s okay to feel like the world is ending. But I know it’s not, no matter how much it feels like it is. I believe every single day we get closer and closer to a cure. It’s ridiculous how the cdc says people knowing their status may not change them being careful about sex. I definitely will because I don’t ever want anyone I love to experience this. I wish I was never one of those people who got an outbreak but I guess I’m happy I got myself tested because I don’t want it to spread to others who I love. I want to tell my grandma because she’s the most important person in my life but I think I need to learn to be comfortable in my own skin first. I’ve been so depressed, the house is a mess, and I need to get on my ass and get myself together. My ex who tested negative mentioned that I’m still a beautiful girl and that if I find someone mature enough, they shouldn’t even care because they’d love me just that much. I’m just hoping that’s true. I’m also scared of how many outbreaks I’ll get. That’s the scariest part.
Any thoughts and prayers and advice would mean the world to me.
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m20751 Kela63590
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Kela63590 m20751
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ashley78942 Kela63590
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It’s ok to cry & be depressed. It’s ok to feel like the world is ending. As long as you do it & then pull yourself back together & realize ITS NOT! I think we all go through the emotions when we’re first diagnosed, & I think the depression is worse during an outbreak. I got diagnosed almost a month ago & haven’t told many people yet, I told a few people for support & I told one guy who was interested in dating me, so far everyone has been surprisingly supportive. I haven’t told much family, just my mother because I knew she would support me no matter what. If you want I can give you the info for an online support group I found a few weeks ago, it’s been very helpful for me to have people to talk to & ask questions to
Kela63590 ashley78942
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ashley78942 Kela63590
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He was surprisingly ok with it. I actually just told another last night & he was also still interested. It’s difficult for me rn to think much about dating because I just found out yesterday my boyfriend (now ex) the one who gave me this was cheating (awesome boyfriend right?!) So I’m still going through the emotions of this being a newer diagnosis & now the thought of having to date. I’m terrified to tell people but it’s nice that everyone Iv told has been supportive. I understand u not telling ur grandmother. I haven’t told my father for the same reason 🤦🏻??? Just give it some time ! U deal with it first & hobetly if u need her for support I’m sure she will be supportive ! I’m sure she loves u no matter what
Kela63590 ashley78942
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haz83342 Kela63590
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No need to exagerrate it. I disagree with you that you start telling many people about it. This is not the right thing. One supportive friend is extremely enough.
Stop feeling guilty. People with herpes are so many. Take it easy. First learn how to deal with outbreaks. Second learn how to prevent outbreaks. Third tell your partner. Fourth go for protected sex. Thats all. If you do all that so you will have happy life with rare outbreaks and protected partner. Message me any time for any question.
Good luck
Kela63590 haz83342
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ida79960 Kela63590
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Hey! You and I are just the same age, I also are studying to become a nurse and we both are in the same situation with newly being diagnosed with hsv2. Then I can kind of see it from my own point of view, and hsv is really not a big deal even though I also feel like it is right now. But I guess it takes time emotionally to recover from the diagnosis! And I would really love to talk to you since I feel like a lot of what you are writing is my same experiences and we have a lot in common. Feel free to message me. The reason I am writing this is so you can know that someone your age and who are studying the same are also «suffering» from this. Much love to you
Kela63590 ida79960
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BStowe58271 Kela63590
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m20751 BStowe58271
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Does your current partner have it? I also feel like going forward no one will want me if they don’t have it to. I dread even having these conversations😩
BStowe58271 m20751
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haz83342 BStowe58271
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Your story is inspiring
I m a man with herpes since april.
Pls tell me what suppressive therapy you take.
You mean you do unprotected sex and your partner still ok?
L3aPsy BStowe58271
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BStowe58271 haz83342
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BStowe58271 L3aPsy
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L3aPsy BStowe58271
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May I ask if your doctor recommended this method for you OR was this a decision you decided on?
Personally, I find it very strange to be on meds for that long, as they are unnatural & possibly toxic to organs like our liver. What are the studies on taking meds for that long? Does it somehow lower your chances of reoccurrence? Have you ever thought about researching &inding a natural cure to ease symptoms?
Ive read up on cold pressed: olive leaf extra, oregano, oil, neem oil.
Juicing with oregano & parsley, also applying oregano oil on lower spine which is where the virus hides. Ive read up on many testimonials of this natural method & some even mentioned they been OB free & some tested negative after maintaining this stick health diet.
L3aPsy BStowe58271
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haz83342 BStowe58271
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Actually my dr advised me not to take suppressive therapy and to have sex freely when no outbreaks but i do take daily valtrex since my first OB in april and i got no outbreaks since then. I had sex once and my partner is ok till now but it is still early for me to judge.
tami41161 L3aPsy
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BStowe58271 L3aPsy
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BStowe58271 haz83342
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