Just found out I have Herpes :(

I don't know haven't got that information yet! It was just diagnosed by the eye of the doctor I'm guessing 2 because it's on my down below

Do you have it as well Olivia?

I'm contemplating suicide as well but I could not leave my parents they would be devastated!

I have a plan of staying with my boyfriend for as long as possible

I'm going to start trying for a baby (it's safe) and then I'll have a baby so I won't give a crap if I have a man or not because I'll have a child to look after! I really want children!

Don't kill yourself olivia we will all be okay

I'm only 18 though. I had sex one time. I don't deserve this. I guess I have HSV-1 but idk if it's orally or genitally. I have to small bumps down there but they're not herpes. I think I've gotten a cold sore. I'm fine if it's orally & ive probably always had if but idk i've itched for 5 months. I'm at school right now and I just can't do this. Everyone seems so happy and I'm just here in pain. I'm really thinking about doing it.... who would wanna be friends or date a girl with HSV-1??? I'm so tired. I should have stayed a virgin forever like my dad told me... and i never wanted to do it it just happened. I'm also adopted so i know they'll miss me but i've always wanted to be with my real parents. Idk i think i'm going to go through with it /:

are you all from the U.K.?

Yeah I am from the UK

And Olivia you really shouldn't be over thinking it so much especially since you have HSV1 it's really not bad what so ever!!

It's harder to get and you get less out breaks 85% of the population have HSV1 even my mom has it!!! And my brother!! And a few people from work!!

My mom doesn't even know its herpes she's clueless she really doesn't care!

Just tell people you suffer from cold sores

But I know how you feel I'm scared to be alone!

I think it might be genitally though. I don't want it to be. And my parents are wanting to take me to a therapist and a hospital. I've gone crazy. I can't do this. I wanna do it tonight... There's nothing for me to live for anymore. I've always been sad and depressed so this is just making it worse. I need to be with my real parents and hopefully god. I'm so terrified that I'm leaving school right now. I can't breathe.. I've given up.

Please Olivia don't do this! I guarentee because of statistics there are a lot more people with this skin infection than you think in your school!!

Least your parents know

I haven't told my parents anything because I'm so disgusted

Please don't kill yourself

Hi Oliviya, I am so sorry that you are going through this. you can do type specific IgG test to make sure which one you are infected with, but you need to paas the window period for more acurate result. I can understand how depressed you are with your comments here. I just want to tell you that it gets better by the time. I live in UK and I am a guy who fall in love with a lady who have HSV2. So trust me there are lots of good men out there who will aceept as the way you are. Give some time and you will be fine. Dont do anything stupid to your self.  I am sure you are more stronger than that. try to find someone to talk it really helps. Hugs xxxxx

What's the window period? I'm just so broken. I don't know why because I was careful! So take the IgG test? What's that going to do?

Did you do the swab test? this is the most acurate test.

Window period is the period wich takes your body to make detectable antibodies which is normally 3 to 5 months from possible expose. in this test it check for antibodies in your blood, so you dont have to have an outbreak for the test and you can clearly find which type you have. you can do this test in NHS sexual health. 

Most of people in here not infected with their chice for sure, you were just got unblucky for once, but it is not the end of the world. May be you are not infected at all.

Drop me a personel message if you want someone to talk. you are not alone and everything is going to be alright. x

No i didn't because she said i didn't have any symptoms or the bumps. I have ingrown hair a lot and they just itch they don't hurt at all and I pee fine. I think i'm fine. I just got my blood test and i talked to my nurse and she says that i don't have it down there. I do get a lot of sores in my mouth or near it so that's probably it. I went to go get checked after 4 months. My ingrown hair itched me but now they're gone. I'm honestly fine now. I saw what blood test was done so it's better. My friend gets cold sores a lot so maybe i got it from her cause we share drinks a lot. I know I don't have it down there. I trust the blood tests. Thank you for your help! But i've been so worked up that i have tingles and twitches all over my body but never near my groin or down there. I was going crazy. I mean the bumps did come after i shave and i always get bumps so i itched them too much and irritated the skin... but i never had problem getting up or peeing, i would be fine. So i'm confused.

I am so glad that you feel okay now and sounds you dont have to nothing to worry aboutfor me. May be you are just thinking too much. HSV1 is much more coomon than HSV2. But you need to careful when you have cold sores. it can easily speread to your eyes. and try to prevent having sex when you have an outbreak.

And next time when something bad happen to you dont say that you give up on your life. I am sure you are lot better than that. x

Okay I will. They can seriously spread through your eyes? That's really scary. I just wished I waited till mariage and not go with random men. They should teach more about herpes in school cause that's the most common. But should I be worried with all the muscles twitching in my body or the little tinglings? Or could they be from the steroid cream?

and contarcting virus from women to men is not common as men to women. I lived with my gf for 1 year and by performing sefe sex, she using antiviral drugs and avoiding sex during outbreaks kept me safe and I didnt get it. So spreading the virus is clearly manageable. No need to worry hun. you will be alright. x

yes, you can go blined with spreading it to eyes.

And it is good to give a thought before you sleep with someone randomly. thise viruses are for life and it is not wroth for a one night stand.

Could be steroid creams since those creams can make your skin dry, or may be you are just thinking too much. May be it is time to think for you to eat and live healthy, get rid of bad habits if you have like smoking and drink pleanty of water. Go to a gym do workouts take care of your self. Treat your self like temple and the men will chase you, trust me on this one :D.

Well Idk. I'm done with the steroid cream tomorrow morning so i'm waiting to see if it worked at all! I'll be dissapointed if the itching comes back /: But i've been so stressed out and my anxiety was so bad that i think it lead up to me twitching and i get tingling in my hands and feet a lot too. but i've always gotten those. but down there i get this weird annoyinh feeling it's like a little electricity that does not last long at all. It's so annoying. Is that a sign of herpes?

Some people may experience some tingling sensation and some back pain before and during an outbreak, because the virus has lot to do with your nurves, but thats not last long more than 2 weeks top.

So I think in your case it has nothing to do with herpese but anxity can be a reason. I rekon you to find a good and trust wrothy friend to talk. DOnt stay alone and make your own assumptions, mind can do wonders if you use it wrong and that will make you more depressed. Hopefully your itching will be gone by end of using your crream.

I am wondering which country you live?