Just got diagnosed with herpes and don't know how to feel

hi erin , im 23 and have just been told i have herpes , i got it off my boyfriend and i got into the relationship knowing he had it .So there certainly is people who it wont scare away .Also i think men have it easier when it comes to genital herpes , they dont suffer so much .My boyfriend only gets one bump say and i can be covered .Trust me , there will be guys who wont be scared away .Just explain to them it is just like having cold sores down there

Hello there please read this. Im new to this forum, I'm 23 and am literally going through the same exact thing as you. I feel completely the same but I went through a recent down word spiral not being able to accept this and I still cant but it has gotten so bad for me that I have nothing else to do. I had only been with one girl for 7 years, we married and moved and cross the country together but then one day she had a sudden change of heart and left me put of the blue. I thought the hat was the worst the hating that ever happened to me but surprisingly I pushed on. I wasn't looking for a relationship or to meet anyone because I didn't really feel capable of having feelings for someone but then I meet this girl. I've never felt this way about anyone in my life or anything before this was unmistakably true love and I had thought my wife left me for a reason. I spent the of the best nights of my life with and everyone knew us being together was inevitable but turns out she had an ass hole of a boyfriend that didn't treat her right. She obviously picked him over me even though many times she spent the night with me in my bed and told me how much she wanted to leave him. She obviously chose him over me and eventually ignored my complete existence. I am not a man to have feelings like this but I couldn't get over her. Day after day I longed to see and talk to her and day after day it tore m apart more and more.

I've never felt so depressed and alone in my life, as cliche as it sounds I dreamt of her often which only made things worse. So I began my plunge into a downward spiral which lead me to a dumb one night stand which you know what cane of it. I thought I was alone before , the sick joke about all of this is she broke up with him and came to see me one night we late together and only cuddled but tlas standeeoon abouts morning came around abouts I showed up at work where we both were employed she was back with hI'm abouts mind completely ignored me once more. I was standeeoon uch of aboutsmdndll this I had no one to blame but.myself aND I was I would be alone for the rest of my life. So I try ed to kill myself obviously failing. Most people wake up with regret but the only thing I regretted was failing at my measly attempylt. I am a very talented gentlemen and although I don't care if I waste those talents an urge rose up inside of me I told myself I will atleast try to use my talents to get me out of my shifty broken down life and to stop focusing on finding someone and maybe I'll get lucky one day. I still very much want to do myself in everyday but after I dI'd some research I've found that many people suffer the same fate as me and some are cruelly then mine. So here I am taking the first step in trying to get passed this. I can't tell you if it's gonna work out but at least I can tell you your not alone and if you ever need to talk there are many people looking for the same thing and you should keep trying.