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Hi all, been a while since I've posted. I've been on this whirlwind perimenopause journey for 4 years now and I have experienced an insane variety of symptoms. I should be used to them by now, but I am not. I am 46 years old and still get a (mostly) regular period, although my cycle is much shorter than it ever was before (often <21 days) and I've skipped 2 periods. The thing I have the most trouble with is the health anxiety that comes along with every new pang, twitch, pain, sensation. For the most part, I can tell myself that I do not have insert deadly disease here but there are times that my mind takes me off the deep end. It's run the gamut from "I must have MS" to, more recently when I had a mole removed that my doctor told me was nothing to worry about - until I got the pathology report back, I had convinced myself I had melanoma. Now, I am having a lot of muscle/tendon/bone/joint pain in random places (left ribs, sort of under the armpit; right hip; right arm, shoulder to fingers). This has now lodged in my brain as bone cancer, which I know is a completely irrational fear. I tell myself to stay away from Dr. Google, but am no good at doing so. I am hesitant to see my PCP, although I've been seeing her since I was 18 and she knows about my health anxiety. I am on a very low dose of Lexapro and am considering going to see her solely to increase that in hopes that it will help calm these thoughts. Anyway, I'm not sure what I'm looking for here other than to vent (my husband is a wonderful and supportive listener, but I know I drive him crazy with my drastic jump to dire speculation). Thanks for the ear!
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