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So this is cheesy, but still, it's how I feel. I wish there was someone who would love me and who I would love back. Not for the sake of love or sex, but of joining another soul for a life long journey. I've been depression, anxiety, bipolar, hypochondria, and god knows what else. I've lost pretty much everything except my dog and my soul, but I can't let go of the relationship that ended a year ago. She wasn't just my wife, she was my life. And she walked out. I am now stuck between hell and deep hell.... I let her go and respected her choice. I am totally adult about this. I tried looking at other women, but no one catches my attention. And this is LA so you're either a pretend actress, aka superficial and fake, or you're less than attractive. I feel like if I don't get her back then I will never ever be able to find anyone. I am handsome and pretty smart. I don't play games and I don't use people. But women don't see me at all. I feel invisible. I've gotten in shape, lost 60 lbs, look 10 years younger, and still no luck. I used to be able to meet women all the time, but I feel like I am on a desert. I feel so freaking alone. Friends are friends and family is family, but I really miss the feeling of being with someone and sharing my life with them. I don't want to be with someone because I am lonely and desperate, I want to be with someone because I want to share my happiness with her.... But I am losing hope each and every day... And not to sound like a total misogynist, but western women are just destroying society, imho. I've gone to divorce meetup groups and it's just endless stories of decent guys being dropped by women who wanted "more". My ex didn't leave because she wanted more, but the pain is not any weaker. How can I find hope that I will meet someone some day =\
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