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So some of you know me some of you don't. Basically I was taking 1200mg of codeine a day and as much tramadol as I could for 5 years.
I tried to go cold turkey at the end of August however I could not handle the withdrawals so ended up doing myself a short detox at home with subutex.
The NHS drug centre saw me when I was 2 days off the sub's - what did they want to do??? Put me on a script for Sub's!! Sitting there in withdrawal I had to say no for a full hour to a consultant offering me the drugs my whole body was screaming out for!! When I said no they told me there was nothing they could do.
I finally got through the physical withdrawal - wow that was hard - but not as hard as what came next!! The mental torture. I have always suffered from depression (hence the self-medicating) so maybe it will be better for those of you that do not have mental health problems.
I ended up going to a great rehab - Promis in Kent. Cost me 9K for 2 weeks!! However it probably saved my life.
I am back home now. I cannot work. Very low and anxious. I have been told to go to NA - still not sure after quite a few meetings if its for me. I want to join the gym but having trouble getting out of bed! I have decided I am not going back to the job I have - I hate it. I have just applied to a local college to re-train with animals - my passion, well horses actually but I live in the wrong area for that. When my daughter finishes her A-levels I'm off to the country to keep animals and do my stage 1 and 2 in horse-riding (best drug EVER).
I may be struggling mentally but I can give advise if you are currently wanting to stop or are stopping opiates - would be happy to help.
Massive thank you to all those on here who have been a GREAT help especially Oly who would always reply to my posts needing help.
Big love Suex
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