Just venting

I am so sorry you are having it so rough night I am sending you a prayer. I have been there myself. Just remember The Lord will show Himself strong to you whenever your weak. He promises that in 2 Corinthians chapter 9 – when I come to Him with my weaknesses; when I go to Him in a tight, difficult place; when I cry out for help, He’s there. He’s with me. God loves hard places. And the harder the situation, the more He enjoys showing you how powerful He is. So, remember you can run to Him for help anytime. For when you are weak, He is strong. I got that message from Joni Eareckson Tada and I just love running to The Lord in times of sadness and trouble because He truly gives me peace.

You will be ok! It is rough, but you will be ok...you are not crazy, trust me. There will be better days. Sometimes they are few and far between but a good day will sneak in. I know what you are feeling. For me I think just keep plugging along. Keeping a routine helps. Staying busy, so my mind doesn't wander..and trying to not feel guilty for the things I can't do for whatever reason. Unbelievable what hormones can do to your mind and body. Have faith in yourself and just do what you are able to do. Be honest to your family on how you are feeling physically and mentally, so they are aware. I tried guided meditation which helps sometimes. It's always good to vent!

Remember, Susan, that this has nothing to do with you. This is something that is happening to you, and it is not within your power to resolve it on your own.

I understand the crying, the irritability, the anger, the rage, the total loss of yourself and your peace of mind.

Please don't be angry with yourself. You have to support yourself, in any way that you think will help you. You also have to be totally honest with your husband and daughters, so that they can completely support you. You should never feel ashamed by what is happening to you.

My boyfriend, my mother, and my closest friend have seen me in the most horrid states imaginable. States that I never thought I would even experience, but they have been there for me every step of the way, and they have loved me through everything, because they know who I am, and they know that the crazy thoughts and feelings that I have had are not me!

I have had terrible days, and I have had beautiful days. On the terrible days, I have wanted to die because I simply didn't want to suffer anymore, but then, when I had the next reprieve, where I found myself once again, I was so thankful to be alive.

Just keep going, Susan. Cry, scream, rant. Do whatever you have to do, but live, and one day this will be gone. It will all be over, and you will be restored. I promise you.

Bev xo

I'm the same way been this way for over 3 years now.. And it sucks I use to be so fun loving do something every weekend even if it was go to dinner and drinks or stay home and play games and cards, when this all hit me all that stopped and at first anxiety was so bad I wanted to climb out of my own skin I was so nervous and sick and dizzy and one symptom lead to the next, and all though anxiety calmed down it was replaced with really bad migraines and other scrappy symptoms I literally feel like I'm locked up.. This morning my anxiety came back to bite me like it was 3 years ago it was awful , I made it thru the morning and I'm feeling not so anxious tonight thank god but it came over me bad this morning.. One of my grandsons is 10 he had 2 Christmas concerts at school this week and guess who couldn't go ME ME ME... I would never be able to go in there and sit for 2 hours under all the fluorescent lights and be able to walk out of there without a migraine. I feel bad and trapped and i just do what I can when I can and if I can't then not much I can do about it.. In not much fun either these days but hoping it will improve some day.. And I'm so limited to what I eat these days it seems like everything causes more symptoms so I just eat the same limited things everyday so no going out to eat for me, and use to love wine and drinks can't do that either I feel like death the next few days and its just not worth it.. Ugggg I'm there with you hoping it gets better some day..

All the things we're having to go through physically and emotionally during this time are horrible, so give yourself a break! Don't be so hard on yourself ❤❤

I'm sorry you feel this way. But I know exactly. I have been crying everyday since Thursday. And yesterday I was mad that spouse doesn't know how to comfort me--- just need reassurance and a hug!.. I think my son noticed my eyes welling up too and I turned away to stop. It's the holidays and I'm hosting so I'm hoping after the holidays I will feel better. I've been super anxious in the morning before I get out of bed but what I really need is sleep. Take Care.. It's OK!!! Drink some water and enjoy your alone time-- perhaps a movie.

Hi Susan,

Don't be so hard on yourself... it's ok and it's all going to be ok. Have faith.

Know that you're not alone and that we all experience these thoughts and feelings and tough times.

We are only human after all and need to remind ourselves of that.

Enjoy all the good days to the max and forget about the bad days. .

Take care x

Oh no hun.... I know it is hard, but the last thing you want to end up with is agoraphobia because of the symptoms, sounds to me that you may have a lot of anxiety. The best solution to deal with anxiety is go beat the fear, to push through it. So sorry you are getting to miss out on this outing.

Oh no hun.... I know it is hard, but the last thing you want to end up with is agoraphobia because of the symptoms, sounds to me that you may have a lot of anxiety. The best solution to deal with anxiety is go beat the fear, to push through it. So sorry you are getting to miss out on this outing.

I wish i could reply to each one of you individually but my stupid phone keeps freezing and this is taking me forever. I swear my patience is being tested and im plummeting faster then the titanic and my boobs. Thank you all of of you and for the beautiful words and words of god, I do pray everyday. It does help so much to hear from all of you, you are all so comforting and give such hope and Bev you truly have been a rock with all of your support. Im just so afraid im only 48 is this going to last through my 50's. I know i have no way of knowing and can only hope and pray for the best and pray for all of you as well. Wish i could hug each of you. ❤ xoxoxo