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Hello ! I start with 20 mg of citalopram and after three weeks I was feeling great again and one day I just went down again so my dr told me to start taking 40 mg I'm on day 9 on 40mg .. Bt I feel really depressed I don't know if this is normal .... I just want to feel happy again 
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diane524 guadalupe_32458
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Are you learning CBT?
guadalupe_32458 diane524
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Yes i am on cbt .... I'm dealing with grief and with the anxiety it just feels awful to feel this way every morning every day ... I was doing so good and now Im so depressed ... I really hope that citalopram helps me I can't wait to get up in the morning and see the beauty of the day... I'm desperate!
diane524 guadalupe_32458
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I have also had a,lot of grief in my life in the last few years. I have lost my mom, brother, brother in law and in laws that loved dearly.
I am just really focusing on the positive things in my life and joy in small things. It is hard but the harder I work the better I am getting.
I go 2 steps forward and 1 back, I just don't like the one that took me back a minute depress me and drag me farther back.
guadalupe_32458 diane524
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Sorry about your losses ... I Lost my babies at 20 weeks pregnant , two beautiful boys
this happened on May 2nd the lived for 2 hours in my arms 
it's so sad and my do date was going to be September 22nd so I think part of my depression is the month 
diane524 guadalupe_32458
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I will pray for you to heal and find your way.
Sincerely - Diane
Gerrymoo diane524
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guadalupe_32458 diane524
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Thank you so much Diane I have two kids one is 8 years old and the other one is 5 years old I love them so much bt my depression is affecting them too
diane524 guadalupe_32458
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It is a,blessing that you have two children but I know they don't makeup for your loss.
You will never forget or truly get over your loss but tI'm will make it bearable and you will find joy in life. Hard to see now but I use my brain a,great deal to push myself.
diane524 Gerrymoo
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katecogs guadalupe_32458
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The road to recovery is often up and down, so you will feel waves of feeling good followed by feeling low. Taking a higher dose won't necessarily solve it - you'll get side effects from the increase plus you'll probably still reach this up/down stage whatever dose you're on.
You just need to let the low feeling be there when it comes, relax towards it and in time it'll disappear again. You'll get many of them as you progress towards recovery.
Doctors often increase patients meds when they hit a low patch and don't think they realise it part of recovery.
Personally I wouldn't have increased.
For many people, It takes a long time to finally be anxiety free. Months, not weeks. You will get there.
K x