Keep having reoccurring thought

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To sart off with, I'm 15 years old and anxiety hot me extremely hard about 8/9 weeks ago out of nowhere. Everyone says it's due to my stress from school because I have all my gcses this year and am behind in all subjects. But anyway, I've had this extreme fear that I'm actually mentally ill or that I'm going to become mentally ill because of the way I'm feeling and my mum works in mental health houses with mentally ill people and has told me these different stories of why people are in there, so this has been a recurring thought for a while but today I woke up feeling extremely weird like I couldn't describe how I was feeling and I became extremely scared and worried that there was something wrong with me and now I suddenly have a fear of hurting/killing my family and I cannot calm myself down, I feel sick to my stomach about it and I can't stop thinking about it, I usually go to my mum for comfort when I feel anxious but now I'm scared of going to her incase I get an urge to do something bad to hersad I feel so scared and worried the panic is taking over me and I can't find comfort in anything 

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    You need help.. Go to er.. Those thoughts your having need to be addressed by a doctor. Medicine can help you.. Please don't wait. Or call for an ambulance. 
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    Tanya, it's a worry to hear that you are feeling these emotions,  and I'm sure that anyone reading this like I am will feel very concerned for you right now. I would like to state I am not a professional and I am only advising from a mothers perspective here. But I think you need to speak to someone sooner rather than later.  If you can, go and see your doctor and state it is an emergency appt required. If you don't feel comfortable doing that on your own, may I suggest you make a call to Samaritans and talk to someone about it in private. I have used them in times of need and it's nothing to be ashamed of. 

    One thing I will say Tanya is that if my mum discussed others mental illness in front of me, I think it would frighten me. Please try not to mix those work scenarios up with reality, it is not the norm but extreme circumstances, The other thing I would say to you is give yourself a break. I'm sure you've been told this but you are going through a very difficult time in your life with your gcses as well as your hormones... And at 15 they will be going crazy!! Trust me, I've been there! Hormone imbalance can make you feel all sorts of emotions. It can even lead to some feeling suicidal which just goes to show you how extreme it can be. A doctor may well be able to help you with calming that down.

    But PLEASE don't delay. Call Samaritans now, go and see your doctor if you possibly can and try to keep your emotions calm... So if you are googling symptoms and frightening yourself further please stop as it will make you feel worse.

    • Posted

      Whats samaritans? My mum just doesn't take it seriously enough and tells me to stop being stupid but it's beyond a joke now

       

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    Hi Tanya, all good advise. 

    When I was first ill with anxiety I had similar thoughts about harming my baby daughter and was frightened in case Id have a panic, lose control and do something to her, suffice it to say she's 21 in Feb and I did nothing to harm anyone.

    The fact that you are aware of those thoughts and are frightened by them suggests to me you are in control and will not do anything.

    The danger signs are when you actually "want to harm" and have plans in place to carry it out. Having an urge is a million miles away from you carrying it out yet I understand how frightening those thoughts are to have.

    Your mum shouldn't be discussing those cases with you when you are vulnerable, but again rest assured they are there often because of far more complex mental health issue.

    You are in control Tanya and like others have said give Samaritans or Sane a call if your getting extremely frightened, they can help you through it.

    Neil 

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    Tanya

    You are not well and your thinking is not normal.  If you are so terrified and feeling like a danger to others you must get help immediately.  You can do this by yourself by phoning a mental health emergency line in your area. they will talk to your mother with you about your current state of mind and your mother may be a huge support to you or she may feel too close to the situation to see it clearly and support you to get the best help available. 

    You are under a lot of personal stress but you need to recognise an emergency turn for the worst, and I think you know you need help.  this is not something that will necessarily just pass and go away.

    Good luck and you are not alone.  xxxoooxxx

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    When a person is depressed, anxious and scared they can feel and think 'crazy' things. I know I do. I sometimes think about harming those closest to me - so that they no longer have to suffer because of me being a burden on them. This 'thought' lasts for a moment then passes. It makes me feel scared and even more anxious. I've discussed my situation with my doctor, and am on medication.

    Yor're suffering from anxiety. I seriously doubt that you're mentally ill - but you are scared and worried. So why not see your doctor. If need be, tell your parents it's about something else. Explain to your doctor how you're feeling.

    If, in the meantime, you suffer a panic attack then try to calm yourself. Lay on your bed or go for a walk. Anything to calm yourself and avoid aggrivating your situation.

     

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