Last few months suffered from depression, thought I was ok but think I've relapse again...

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From the start of January I've suffered from depression, everyone thinks longer which I feel it has been going on for along while, maybe a good few years. I finally seeked help and doctors described me anti depressions was in 20mg but made me so drowsy after taking them within half hour. Reduced to 10mg and to take at night. Finally felt like I got back on my feet got a new job forced myself to go to interviews but I just don't talk to anyone, I'd rather just work and be alone, but finding it really unfriendly at the place. There's about 2 people I actually talk to. Just feel so emotional yet again and can't stop crying, fed up not really talking to anyone or putting afront on with my family. I used to be such alaugh and outgoing now I feel so boring and dull just moan a lot about any little thing. Just so fed up starting to feel reduced to inflicting pain on myself digging my nails in my skin I feel I'm going crazy. What do I do!!!!

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    Hello Laura, maybe everyone was right about your depression going on longer than january. Glad you saw your doctor. Don't feel bad about people at work. When I worked everyone was jealous and wanted my position but as long as I did my job well, I didn't care about what they thought because I knew what they wanted. I didn't talk to many people at work either but tried to be friendly but as hard as I tried it didn't matter. So just keep the friends you have at work and don't worry about the rest. As far as your family, it is no shame that you are sick. If you had cancer do you think they would think less of you. You should let them know. If they are a good family, I'm sure they will understand. I was very outgoing until I had a breakdown in 2000. I told my family about it and they understood and would help anyway they could. You are not crazy, you are just sick and need treatment so you don't need to inflict pain upon yourself. You are already in pain don't create more. You will find help so go easy on yourself. All of us in here are in pain and many have your same problem.
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    there are a number of different meds GPs use for depression and anxiety. If one does not help then you need to try another. That means talking to your GP in more detail.

    Depression is not cured. The meds should help you to cope and fight back. It can be very difficult to know when you are strong enough to do without the meds. Just feeling better is too early and your brain needs much more time to settle back into a normal routine. So coming off anti depressants is never easy.

    How to fight it? First you need the meds to take their course in lifting the feeling of depression. Then you can start doing positive things. Get out in the fresh air; long fast walks; set yourself targets; think about all the good things in life; at home think about what you would really, really like to do (regardless that you may not be able to); dream about that; relax. Positive thinking is your friend. banish those depressive thoughts with positive ones. This is not easy and it does require discipline but the longer you do it the easier it becomes and you will win,

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    Hi pat, to my family they think it only lasts then once it's gone it's all funky dory, met them all yesterday and hardly see them so took dogs over the park and not one of them asked how I was or all night I would speak to them and they wouldn't be listening. I'm not going to bother with them anymore I have 1 brother n 1 sister, and they too busy in their own life's. Rarely call or text.

    And jaguar I try so hard to think positive but I have nothing positive to think about, cry myself to sleep every night and my partner doesn't even notice. This is my life now I guess so I'm just going with it. People at work really aren't nice, and I bet that salvia will be in and do something to upset me again, I haven't any friends at that place, I talk to about 3 people but wouldn't say we'll friends yet.

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    There are many things in life to be positive about - just being alive is one of them. So what does your partner do? Is he supportive? Do you work in a very large firm and what sort of job do you have? Roughly how many people work there?
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    My partner is always on his phone or the iPad and it's murder to get a simple answer out of him whether yes or no if he wants a cup of tea or something as little as that. Like I spoke to him just now told him I'm thinking of ringing work up and he says I'm coming home early today, then I found out his only coming home early to do something on his sisters car!! Sick of coming last all the time. He try's to be supportive but the annoying supportive I have to get upset just to get a cuddle out of him or a conversation why I'm upset. Resent phones and iPads, and defiantly tellys!!!! I work in aldi's, I enjoy the job but the people just don't have a clue how to run the place, you have at least 5 managers in one night that you take orders from every single one that tells you something different, or you put something here nope don't put it there, you do this or you don't do that!! It's sooo frustrating. There's this one manager salvia and it's coming across as if she's picking on me now and I could do without it, she's had me reduced to tears twice and I only bee there just over a month. All the people that work there are so rude they don't train you on anything.

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    Are you sure your partner really wants you? Or does he just want a maid, cook and bottle washer? What's his job?

    So that must be a big Aldi to have 5 managers at night. Who employed you? Was it a person who is in your store?

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    I don't know, he just isn't a affection person, unless he wants something or his I'll. he works for Bt so I understand he does long hours but still nice to help around the house, or if he was feeling like this I'll surprise him with little things that he likes just to make him feel better. I let it build up then I just explode and that's when he finds out how I feel when I lay it all out. He'll be good for a day then it's back to how things were.

    No it's the smallest store going, they over work the assistant managers they do 12 hour shifts everyday, they work alcoholics, there's too many chiefs and not enough Indians. No one knows what they doing. I the interview they say it's a great company. It's not, it's so hard to even book holiday off it's just a big issue. I sometimes work early mornings and evenings.

    Xx

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