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I'll start by giving you some details about me - Im 23, male, good health (ish), great shape, gym goer. Suffered from panic attacks and anxiety for around 4 years, been taking 50mg sertraline for that up until now. Had a really rough childhood. also suffer with body dysmorphia.
The past 12 months or so, I've been getting these really crazy periods of fatigue, I'm not sure what triggers them, although I've linked a couple of them to appearing right after stressful things happen (such as losing my job). I wake up with a pounding headache as if I'd been awake all night, high temperature, completely weak and find it difficult to do anything (can just about walk). I'm so IRRITABLE with it, everything p****es me off, even being to hot makes me want to punch something. Anyway, they'll last for around a week and disappear, but to return 3 weeks later. This was going on for a while, however, now i'm struggling to remember when the last time I didnt feel like this was, it just became more frequent and now I feel as though the gym is making it worse. I have body dysmorphia and the gym is super important to me.
As mentioned above ive been taking sertraline for 4 years, and although they kept the panic attack at bay, I never felt happy and ive always been angry and irritable. I get into fights when im drunk, I lose friends quite often, I cant hold down a job. Even though I have a muscular body I HATE IT. i HATE the way i look, always compare myself to others. So all that being said, the sertraline clealry werent working. I stopped taking them 2 weeks ago and went through the motions of the side effects which have now subsided and I'm just back to feeling regular old fatigued again.
I know that Post Exertion Malaise is a huge symptom of CFS but i literally feel crap an hour or two later, and I never felt great before I worked out. I dont get how my body has shut down in a matter of 3 months. I've had ALL blood tests done, and I'm a "picture of health" - I take vitamin supplements anyway, as I'm willing to try anything. I've cut gluten out completely and dairy somewhat.
My GP is completely useless and unwilling to explore further and has referred me to a CFS specialist which could take months due to the "wonderful" NHS waiting times we have in the UK. I've also ordered a cortisol test which has cost me £90 as i dont think the doc tests for this. This is used to test for adrenal fatigue, although apparently my adrenals were fine in my last test.
I'm completely at my witts end. I really dont beleive its CFS (or dont want to beleive it). Am i missing something? is there a condition I've missed? i've become increasingly obsessed with googling stuff to find an answer because my doctor cant be arsed! He literally wont test for anything else now, I have to cure it by myself.
Could this be a mental disorder? could it be depression without neccesarily having a reason to be depressed? I'm always sick, my quality of life is hurrendous despite my efforts to keep in shape and eat healthily. Im so so so tired.
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