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I have had terrible health anxiety for about 4 years, but the last year it has gone into absolute overdrive. I am convinced, utterly convinced I have pancreatic cancer. I had had a year of testing including x2 ultrasounds, x2 CT scans, x2 MRIs and an endoscopy. Waiting on one CT result but everything has come back clear. I have loads of upper abdominal pain, esp the left side, constant burping and heaviness in my stomach. I can barely eat, I've lost over 2 stone in weight. I also have this strange tugging and pulling sensation all down my left side.
I've given up everything I love, don't see friends, don't see family. I am petrified all the time. I sleep about 2-3 hrs a night.
I have seen 7 specialists to get to the bottom of this and have tried my absolute hardest to sort this out to the point where I am close to breakdown.
All I have read is that it can only be PC with these symptoms, and yet the Drs cannot find anything. I am even seeing a gastro/pancreas specialist who specialises in the early detection of PC. He doesn't seem bothered at all. I can't put this worry to bed.I cant move on from it, although everyone has told me to.
Everyone in my life believes I am manifesting the symptoms, esp with my history of health anxiety.But I just know there is something up, and no-one believes me. I just wish something would show up (obviously minor) on the tests so i can now what it is a treat it, rather than the agony of always wondering. It's ruining my life.
It doesn't matter where I turn, noone can help and cant seem to help me. It is the loneliest, most heartbreaking thing. I see everyone else getting on with their lives. I'm 34 and life hasn't even begun yet, and yet I'm in constant pain and noone can help.
All the specialist keep telling me there are no other tests, and that after 9 months of testing that something would show up by now. But I am still convinced that something is being missed, that the scans are missing something. This takes all my energy, all my life force and I am exhausted by no answers.
I try to tell myself its something benign (i pray for this). I have heard people mention splenic flexture syndrome, but I thought that one of the Drs would have mentioned this by now, and it doesn't explain some pain that I get on the right sometimes and the constant burping, and lack of appetite.
Can anyone relate at all, had similar experience? I would be so grateful for some comfort. I cant seem to find any peace of mind.
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