letting myself down

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Although i,m here typing i feel such à copout, i have reduced myself to à person who succumed to thé temptation of drowning ones sorrows, it is so easy to be judgemental, m'y roberts will know this bit somewhere along thé lines of judge not lest you be judged. I am on a journey at thé moment. I hope i dont stick to it, drinking alcohol is never à solution yet hear i am. Sorry folks. Next steo undignified so one of them mad ones where i,ll find comfort in burdening you guys? X 

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    My dear David!!!!what is it that makes you feel this way??.all that has happened in the past???or what is going to happen in the future??you need to live " one day at a time!!! Live for today!!remember blue sky's birds singing colours of a rainbow! The beautifull smell of a flower!!!keep ones mind occupied . Walk! Run! Cycle! Go your fav. Place the library!   Write a poem???get a little rescue dog!!! One that's had a very sad life???give it a home were he feels loved!!!ideas!ideas!!! ,xx
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    Hello David,

    It's me again; Robin from Canada. Some of the posts my just not be good for you. It is wonderful to help people but it mught be getting you down.  I myself found that my blood pressure was soaring from reading about suicidal people like Kiran and Lisa...and stressing out terribly about them. I gave what I could and capable of over about 10 days and that's enough. Maybe it is the same with you, David. I knew I had to stop going on the site and get back to 'real life' and to getting things done in a day. I even started to feel 'down' and I am not even depressed!... But my attempts to withdraw from the site are not working. I keep getting emails from the site....and then of course I am drawn back into responding.

    Having said that I am glad to hear from YOU, because I feel that I have come to know a little bit, a very interesting, kind and giving person. 

    Do you get out much with others, David? Could it be that you are too focussed inward? Are you involved in any community events? Do you go to a gym or swimming? Do you belong to a church? Roberta derives much solace from her involvement in her church. Do you have any hobbies? How about woodworking or any of a myriad of activities offered in your community?

    Are you out in the bright light every day which has been scientifically shown to raise one's mood? Do you get up and go to bed with the sun? I believe you work, so you must do that...

    Can you allow yourself to drink only in a pub so that at least you may be socialising and less likely to abuse? (Maybe not allow yourself to have alcohol in the house which is what I have to do with cookies and crisps.)

    Someone on this site shared with us (maybe you included) that she made lists of her hopes and intentions as well as her qualtities. What a good idea!

    Do you eat well, David? I have suggested to many on this site that they look into magnesium glycinate supplementation. Can you google it and read about how a deficiency (which we all suffer from...just as we do of vitamin D) can cause depression and anxiety?

    I hope you can pull out of this depression you are in. 

    Robin

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      Wow, m'y darling your questions will take time to answer but because you have asked i will d'i m'y best to answer, with toi being à teacher it may help somewhere along thé line.i found not today after les ing m'y home as i live in Liverpool england and it is our citys help à child, happens every year apparently and all our taxi cabs take vulnerable children, blind and disabled
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      Your text makes no sense, David. Are you alright?

      I just wrote to the moderator and asked that he take my name off the email list so that I can finally get some work done. But I would like to hear from you. I will keep this email so that I can check back in for your response later.

      My Italian coffee group friends are about to arrive so must put the coffee and tea on. (THat is one of my activities....besides gardening, cooking, listening to classical music, doing videos for worthy causes, teaching English to immigrants, being there for my 3 kids, being a Granny to my grandson, playing with my pets, photography outings, meeting up with friends for lunch ETC...) There is an abundance of activities you could get involved in according to your interests...even if at first the interest is at 1%. Baby steps!

      Robin

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      Wow, my phone broke , not down but no idea what haopened, you and Roberta meen World to me so will leave u and not reply again. So Sorry hun. Likd eveeythibg else in life ive somehow messed things up. Sorry angel. 
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      David hope your o k ??we all mess up at times!!!i can't believe some of the things iv done in my life! That I'm not proud of!!we just have to brush ourselves down get back up and start Again!!!xxbiggrin
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      Hi David,

      No, please do reply to my questions. I only want to respond and check in on your posts because I really do think that you have SO MUCH potential. You are only 50 and have so much more to do in life. What did you think of all my ideas. Roberta even added some; walk, run cycle, get a rescue dog?  I love that last idea. Dogs love you unconditionally. 

      Robin

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      hi robin angel, sorry about yesterday and posting early this morning, your suggestions are very good and would no doubt help others, not me though i,m afraid, especially a dog, i am a real dog lover. all animals really, the thing is i like everyone get attached to pets and the grief felt when they pass is the same as the grief one feels for a loved one, i,m fine today just full of regrets from yesterday and i think what i meant to say yest was tghat i get my data allowance on 14th so can reply more then? ha thanks for everything hun x
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    David there are alot of people that feel just the same as you on some days, the bd days are the hard days, the normal or not so bad ( hopefully more frequent ) are the days you relly need to push all your efforts on. The good days well they do come and go but they strength you.

    Its hard more so if alcohol is add to equation, but nothing is unsurmountable. I know it when your have the worst days but we cant do anything about them days the normal or good days is where we can make changes.

    Talk to  medical proffesional someone who can help you out and support you. You can make chasges I know you can but like the man who broke hi leg you need a crutch to hold you up will you heal yourself.

    It the man that perserves with the crutch while his leg mends that gets back on track. It never easy and he may slip in the rain or ice, and it will hurt but its not for ever and he gets on again

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