letting myself down
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Although i,m here typing i feel such à copout, i have reduced myself to à person who succumed to thé temptation of drowning ones sorrows, it is so easy to be judgemental, m'y roberts will know this bit somewhere along thé lines of judge not lest you be judged. I am on a journey at thé moment. I hope i dont stick to it, drinking alcohol is never à solution yet hear i am. Sorry folks. Next steo undignified so one of them mad ones where i,ll find comfort in burdening you guys? X
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roberta48267 Mercybemine
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robin77577 Mercybemine
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It's me again; Robin from Canada. Some of the posts my just not be good for you. It is wonderful to help people but it mught be getting you down. I myself found that my blood pressure was soaring from reading about suicidal people like Kiran and Lisa...and stressing out terribly about them. I gave what I could and capable of over about 10 days and that's enough. Maybe it is the same with you, David. I knew I had to stop going on the site and get back to 'real life' and to getting things done in a day. I even started to feel 'down' and I am not even depressed!... But my attempts to withdraw from the site are not working. I keep getting emails from the site....and then of course I am drawn back into responding.
Having said that I am glad to hear from YOU, because I feel that I have come to know a little bit, a very interesting, kind and giving person.
Do you get out much with others, David? Could it be that you are too focussed inward? Are you involved in any community events? Do you go to a gym or swimming? Do you belong to a church? Roberta derives much solace from her involvement in her church. Do you have any hobbies? How about woodworking or any of a myriad of activities offered in your community?
Are you out in the bright light every day which has been scientifically shown to raise one's mood? Do you get up and go to bed with the sun? I believe you work, so you must do that...
Can you allow yourself to drink only in a pub so that at least you may be socialising and less likely to abuse? (Maybe not allow yourself to have alcohol in the house which is what I have to do with cookies and crisps.)
Someone on this site shared with us (maybe you included) that she made lists of her hopes and intentions as well as her qualtities. What a good idea!
Do you eat well, David? I have suggested to many on this site that they look into magnesium glycinate supplementation. Can you google it and read about how a deficiency (which we all suffer from...just as we do of vitamin D) can cause depression and anxiety?
I hope you can pull out of this depression you are in.
Robin
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robin77577 Mercybemine
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I just wrote to the moderator and asked that he take my name off the email list so that I can finally get some work done. But I would like to hear from you. I will keep this email so that I can check back in for your response later.
My Italian coffee group friends are about to arrive so must put the coffee and tea on. (THat is one of my activities....besides gardening, cooking, listening to classical music, doing videos for worthy causes, teaching English to immigrants, being there for my 3 kids, being a Granny to my grandson, playing with my pets, photography outings, meeting up with friends for lunch ETC...) There is an abundance of activities you could get involved in according to your interests...even if at first the interest is at 1%. Baby steps!
Robin
Mercybemine robin77577
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roberta48267 Mercybemine
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robin77577 Mercybemine
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No, please do reply to my questions. I only want to respond and check in on your posts because I really do think that you have SO MUCH potential. You are only 50 and have so much more to do in life. What did you think of all my ideas. Roberta even added some; walk, run cycle, get a rescue dog? I love that last idea. Dogs love you unconditionally.
Robin
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UK-Ven-medicate Mercybemine
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Its hard more so if alcohol is add to equation, but nothing is unsurmountable. I know it when your have the worst days but we cant do anything about them days the normal or good days is where we can make changes.
Talk to medical proffesional someone who can help you out and support you. You can make chasges I know you can but like the man who broke hi leg you need a crutch to hold you up will you heal yourself.
It the man that perserves with the crutch while his leg mends that gets back on track. It never easy and he may slip in the rain or ice, and it will hurt but its not for ever and he gets on again
Mercybemine UK-Ven-medicate
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