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Hi, basically my husband told me I needed to get on an antidepressant because this is ruining our marriage (feelings of detachment, severe depression, lack of empathy, no joy, no libido).
Background: I'm a 38 year old mother of 5, and I have suffered from some form of anxiety/depression since I was a teen. In my 20's I used SSRI's off and on until around 30, and I began changing my lifestyle towards naturopathic using food and herbs as my medicine. Also I have had IBS/stomach/constipation issues throughout all this as well. A few years into it, I was doing better; still had some stomach issues, but I was fit, energetic, and happy. Gluten free/dairy free, low FODMAP controlled it somewhat.
The last 3 years have been hell. My stomach issues became horrible, I depression and anxiety, I became severely fatigued and could no longer workout, can't sleep. Lots of naturopaths. One diagnosed me with SIBO (small bacterial overgrowth) and we had quite the battle using natural and non-natural antibiotics to try to clear it out. Gave up on that, and now just using probiotics and gut soothing herbs. I traveled 3 states over to get my hormones treated, and am now on bio-identical hormones for low progesterone. That was only a few weeks ago. I also got put on Nature-Thyroid for low T3 and T4. That has only been a week.
However, my depression is at it's worst. I can't laugh and mean it. I don't want my husband touching me, I feel gross and sick. I feel so "heavy" if you can understand that. I sleep in a separate bed just so I can get some sleep without someone waking me up, because once awake, I am done for the night. My stomach gets bloated and hurts when I'm upset or down. I'm achy and my muscles hurt. I'm a shadow of who I was.
I thought all of these things would help, and I have spend over $10,000 on naturopaths and herbs/vitamins. My monthly bill for those alone are $300.
So my poor husband has stuck with me through it all, and payed for everything I felt I needed to get well. Never questioned me. But he's tired, guys. I'm tired. My family wants me to get on an antidepressant that will help my brain/gut connection as well as help lift me out of this severe depression. I know my gut isn't producing serotonin or maybe never has for me. I've taken 5-HTP to try to boost it, and it might help a little with my mood, but I'm still so tired and achy.
I've read that certain SSRI's can help with the depression and the gut as well. I am not excited about the side effects, but my life is nothing now. My husband and family want their wife and mom back. Would this perhaps be a bit of a boost that I need to heal? Then I can wean off in time? I keep thinking this might help my gut to heal, since my anxiety or depression keep it from being calm and letting my other herbs/probiotics work. If it helps me feel happier and lifts this heavy fog, I can get back to walking, enjoying nature, doing yoga and the things I love. Wouldn't that be healing as well?
Just really tempted you guys. It goes against what I believe, but I can't live like this anymore. Can a bit of western medicine help me over this hump? Thanks for your thoughts and suggestions.
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