Liver Disease/Gall Bladder Removal
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My experience is that I started drinking heavily back in 2001 after my husband left me and my children for my best friend in 1997. I tried to block out my feelings to look after the children until 4 years on I snapped. I had a nervous breakdown and started drinking then. Eventually, after two admissions to hospital and given two years to live, I turned my life around and unfortunately got involved with someone who was abusive. I stayed dry until this year 2007. I was dry for 4 years no alcohol at all passing my lips. I started work again, which gave me a huge confidence boost, met someone who I gave my flat and entire contents up to move in with him. I then had two operations, one in February for a laproscopy and sterisilation which caused complications and had to take time off work. I was then told I had gall bladder stones and had to have my gall bladder out at a later date. I then had a car accident which resulted in severe shock, bruising and nightmares. I started to drink at the end of May again. Then I had my gall bladder out, again complications. I was called into work as soon as I left hospital and was sacked. Hence drinking even more heavily and of course, it has taken over me once again. My fiance then chucked me out of his house and I am now homeless staying where I can with friends. Consequently, I am now severely jaundiced - very yellow eyes, and I have to go into hospital tomorrow. I have a feeling what they will be saying. I think I have had my chance and my liver is now shutting down. I can only blame myself. It's my two boys (or men should I say) that I have let down as well as myself. I can't help myself anymore - but I have asked for help now and we will just have to see what happens. If my liver is failing, there is nothing I can do about it unfortunately but for the docs to do their best for me, and then I feel guilty about using NHS funds when they could be spent better elsewhere on a more deserving person.
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escargot420 Kazzie
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Lets wait for the prof's to make a diagnosis.
Yellow eye's means, for sure there is something wrong with your liver, however, I've seen more than a hunderd people who went to the same stage in their lives.
They are verry mutch alive, the only thing is, in all cases, that alcohol is a no go for you.
My thoughts about this is; you are using the funds, not abusing, which means you are the more deserving person !!!
So do not give up and stick with the desire to stop drinking !!!
To stop is the only way to solve all your problems, I went to al of this including losing my children , the homelessness and the abuse both fisicaly and mentaly.
Good luck tomorow
Greetz,
Escar
liz05654 Kazzie
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Even though he left me for another woman, he wasn't prepared to let me go. He stalked me for at least 3 years. He broke into my house, he raped me, beat me and bullied me I to a pulp. He was a police officer.
Say no more. It all went wrong. And I lost.
i started drinking. I had always enjoyed a drink. Don't get me wrong. But not to this extent. I drank every night to numb the pain and humiliation and guilt.
I drank about 2 bottles of wine a night in the end. It was awful. Ok at the time but looking back, I felt like crap, I looked like crap and I was crap.
please don't go there. I have more or less stopped now. I have the occasional blip but always feel terrible the day after. Not cos of the drink but the guilt and stupidity and humiliation.
Stop
ypu can do it
dont be me.
liz05654 Kazzie
Posted
a burst appendix and nearly died. Sometimes wish I had. Would be easier.