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I don't suffer myself but my husband has been treated for the past few years for depression. It was only very recently that we realised this was probably SAD. He is fine during the summer and then as the season fades the tears, blind illogical panic, awful feeling of being a failure return. My husband is the last person you would imagine to suffer from depression of any kind. He is a builder, who works outside a lot, but it just goes to show, anyone can be afflicted by this. It is very difficult living with an undiagnosed sufferer. I just thought he was being mean and moody and frankly for a while was no help to him at all. He was constantly tired, yet slept a couple of hours a night and then paced the house from the early hours, only to sit half asleep during the afternoon and evening. I took his irritability personally and in fact began to think that maybe after 34 years of marriage it was time to go our separate ways. That was when he broke down completely and told me how scared he was, what a failure he thought he was, how he didn't feel able to cope with the smallest problem and we cried like babies for hours. Next day we went to our GP. Thank goodness we did. Our GP was brilliant. At first of course it was treated as usual depression, he was given drugs which after some considerable time did begin to help. By the summer he was back to his old self. But just as suddenly in that December back he went to dark place as he calls it. We worked through it as we had before, booked a holiday in Madiera in March, and came back from that with my happy husband again. We followed that with a stress free summer. We both thought he had beaten it, again...then. Just last week, he said he felt he was sliding back to the dark place. It was then that the SAD theory hit me. We spoke to our GP who checked his notes and agreed it was more than likely to be the cause. My husband's new light box arrived today and we are both looking forward to seeing if it will help. I must say just the knowledge that it's 'not all in his head' and he can't just 'pull himself together' helped. I would urge any suffers out there to speak to the people nearest to them. Make sure they know what you are going through. Let them help you. They may surprise you. My husband said he was frightened I would leave him if he told me how he felt, in fact not telling me almost caused that anyway. It was nice for me to know he did still love me and we worked through it. Yes it has been tough, but once you have support it's amazing how things change for the better. I don't know if this light therapy will work, I hope it will, but if it doesn't, we'll look for another solution. If it does, who knows we may do something we talked about for years and move to a sunnier place. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and if it's not this particular one, we'll find another! I wish all you sufferers out there the very best of luck with your treatments. Just remember, talk to your family and friends, they love you and they want to help.
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