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Hi everyone, hope I'm posting this in the right section. My name is lexi, 27y/o. When I was 16 and doing my gcse's I would regularly get so so exhausted and only be able to attend the lessons that were essential & commonly slept for long periods. This carried on periodically however mum put it down to being a teenager as did I, also having a learning difficulty ment i was mentally shattered also. At 19 I contracted Swine Flu and was hospitalized. The tiredness continued but still very periodically and infrequently. During my Alevels and collage I had a part time job in retail and also worked In several bars in town on the weekend whilst loving and going to the gym regularly. 3 years ago I started full time work in a bank/administration and it was around this time that almost monthly I would become wiped out, only for a few days where I'd be unable to concentrate, have what I call 'brain fog', become very emotional and be exhausted. I'd also get a deep itching also like my bones were itchy however itching would not satisfy this. Blood tests revealed I have neutropenia (low white blood cell count) and thus the checking for any and every disease possible began to find the cause. No cause has been found, I am under active monitoring however have been for a year and they have concluded it's ideopathic (no known cause, it's just how it is)
Hematology don't believe that this would cause me the symptoms I was/am experiencing(concentration issues, tiredness ect.) which prompted the blood tests. I then tried a contraceptive to try & even out how I felt as this symptom pattern seemingly monthly I thought may have been hormone related. I have seen a gynecologist with no explanation or diagnosis and I've also seen an endocrinologist again with every test coming back as normal. About 7 weeks ago I started hitting a wall of tiredness daily in work where Id be physically unable to concentrate also with neck pain and back aches and this almost painful exhaustion
I'd have to somehow make it home then go straight to bed at 6pm to be able to get up for 7am. My attendance dropped as I'd be too tired to get up. On the weekend I'd sleep from Friday thro till Sunday to be ready for another week. 3 weeks ago I had to go to the DR as I couldn't cope with how I was feeling, I have been signed off initially with depression and have been on citalopram however the Dr has recognised that depression is a result of my fatigue and loss of brain capacity and the ability to do anything. I tried to go back to work yesterday, was in 4 hours and I couldn't concentrate or remember how to do my job and was shattered. Today I am shattered and can't concentrate for too long on anything. I have had to take breaks writing this. I find it hard to find the right words sometimes or explain what I mean.
I wanted to share my story because I feel really alone at times and like my life is doomed. I have been avoiding and putting off even entertaining the idea of ME for so long as I've WISHED it's anything but, but there's nothing. There's no other explanation or test result that shows anything. My Dr yesterday gave me a booklet of CFS. I'd welcome any comments from anyone please. I feel massively bad I'm not in work and just a general let down :////
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