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Hi everyone . After reading u guys will know that u r reading a useless post from a useless man. First up i am 22 years old and i have passed out of graduate degree and i have just joined a company . I have been depressed about myself before but from past few months i am feeling a lot more depressed about myself. First up i think i am really dumb, i cannot really understand anything at once , i have to continously think about it. I am not a good analyser of things.I sometimes dont even recognize the routes that i have been travelling.i forget thinks easily.You guys will be surprised to know that i cant even ride a bicycle properly. I am a very scared of literally everything.i have social anxiety . I always think about what other people will think about me and i am always scared to talk to other people.Sometimes when i am with my friends i just become very silent as i dont know what topic to talk. i am sure that people dont care about my presence as i am not a very entertaining person.i am not really a very interesting person. Thats why i dont have many friends.i have never had any girlfriend in my life. i can actually give a count of how many times i have talked to girls.even i feel the same thing with my relatives. Till now i have only got 2-3 gifts in my life while my sister has got lots of gifts from my relatives.this just implies that even in my family nobody likes me. I am totally deprived of love. i am very anxious person. even my colleagues always tell me that i do things in a hurry and i take too much tension literally about everything.Whenver i talk to people i dont use my brain , i just spit out everything that comes out from my mouth.people sometimes dont understand what i am talking about.Also i need to mention this that i am very lazy. I also feel that i am not good at anything.i have no talents.Also i am a short man 156cm, sometimes i feel very bad about this.i have very low self esteem.i fell i am totally alone. I kind of talk to myself very often usually scolding myself.i day dream a lot. i dream that i have done some great things and people like me a lot but honestly i havent put any real world effort towards anything. Also my spoken english is bad. i always dream about having girlfriends and spending time with them . Also i believe that i watch lots of porn. i know that i am a total loser and i totally hate myself. i dont know y i wrote all this over here but i am really sorry if i have wasted your time.i am not hoping that something good will happen to me in future , but just wanted to share this to someone.
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