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Someone please help me I'm losing hope with my IBS getting any better. I've made a post before saying IBS is ruining my life and it's only getting worse and I'm only 15.
I've mentioned a ton of stuff about my ibs before in previous posts so I will just ask about the current worse part that if this was solved I might see hope of living with the awful syndrome. Since November 2015 every single time I have a bowel movement I have not completed all at once. I haven't had a single solid stool since November. Every time it is broken up and parts get stuck inside my rectum. For some people they can handle this, I can't because of my OCD and GAD so I have become addicted to cleaning inside my rectum to make sure it's clean and nothing is stuck. Please don't judge me. To make matters worse there is a lot of mucus that is only getting worse.
I could potentially stop cleaning inside my rectum however until the whole thing where stools are getting stuck and I'm not fully completing bowel movements gets better in unsure as to whether I can bring myself to stop. Again please don't judge me I know I'm really messed up.
Recently about a week ago my doctor gave me a laxative called macilax as a last resort as I've tried everything else. I took the first dose on Friday and the second two on Saturday. Saturday night I had diarrhoea so it was working. I still wasn't going all at once however. Sunday was the last day I took the laxative. I missed school on Monday as I still had diarrhoea and also had the flu. It got that bad that Monday night I spent 5 hours on the toilet going a bit every 20 mins and the final time I went it felt like my intestines were falling out, I was almost crying in pain. I couldn't just get up either so I wasn't there for 5 hours because of the whole wiping situation.
I took an Imodium after that in the hopes of being ok for school the next day. I wasn't. I had another day off school and it kept feeling like I needed toilet however every time I went it was just bloody mucus. And passing this mucus hurt.
Wednesday morning my stomach had this weird pain which once again made me miss school. It's really bad for me missing school as my GCSEs are in a few months and I have a lot of stressful work to do. This pain was around the belly button area and happened every few seconds. It isn't agonising it's sort of slightly sharp at first, then really dull, then it goes, then repeats. I went back to sleep, got up a few hours later and the pain stopped after I had a bowel movement. However I was yet again there 5 hours and it wouldn't clean because I hadn't completed it and when I finally did complete it once again my intestines felt like they where falling out.
Tonight this other weird thing that happens every so often happened, normally before I need a bowel movement. It's where I feel a lot of gas moving from far inside my bowels sort of into my anal canal and the only thing holding the gas is my clenched anus hole. It's like holding in a fart however if I was to fart lots of mucus comes out. Sorry to be so graphic but there is no other way I can describe it and it's quite a massive problem. So tonight that happened then when I attempted a bowel movement all that came out was bloody mucus.
I think I couldn't have a bowel movement was because I haven't eaten much the past few days because of the flu. I can't go to the doctors atm because my gp is on holiday until next week. Last time my gp refered me to the paediatrician it didn't really help. The paediatrician dismissed everything I said, didn't give me proper chance to explain and his advice was to just get up after going once. Which doesn't help me what so ever. So when I attempt to see my gp next week I'm going to request to see someone else privately so that I might be able to get somewhere.
Until then please can anyone give me some advice on how to cope and what to do because I'm slowly losing all hope of ever being ok. Currently in trying the low FODMAP diet and I've tried a lot of different tablets and probiotics all of which have either done nothing or made it worse. Sorry for this being so long but I'm desperate for help and please don't judge me.
Thanks for reading.
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