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Alot to read but I would appreciate it if somebody heard me please read all if you do!
Ok I am posting here cause I already know my Doc's are just gonna say it's "in my head" 2008 got vertigo, patterens moving, weird beeping in my ear comes and goes off set by things like fans can be stopped by turning it off and deja vu. Which lead to high anxiety and panic (I already had social/agorihobia)
So 2013 to now
started getting interenal tremors
burning sensation causing painless muscile locking and body twist (feels better when they lock but hurts after)
Back/neck pain/shoulder that i am finding may be from the locking
a wet head sensation developed like warm water is runing don my head sometimes to the point of driping off my face
head pressure in base by neck to back of head but can spread
episode of the outside looking fake (derealization?)
blood taste in mouth and facial nubness
objects drifting/moving looking bigger or smaller
They locking and symptoms got EXTREAM I was gonna commit myself cause I was losing memory things were foggy and my vison sometimes blurr so on.
I am 20mg valium and 200mg Lamictal
Since the Lamictal I have had these symptoms lessen and space out but now they have a pattern i will gt deja vu feel sick, extream sleepyness, wet head and it will build up till i hit a "space out"
A moment where I can hear and sometimes talk but usual can't . I can't remeber what was said to me afterwards all I know is I can feel it coming and I start to drift and star to the side and just figet sometimes I don't know I get holes in my clothes from biting. I never started sacing out until I started AED's (I have tried 3 of them) However just the same I never had a brak in symptoms until them.
Along with the space outs my body sometimes tremors as well and old medication that use to be no big deal can cause full body shakes and I bite my tounge till it passes (about a hour or 2 and I am awake the whole time)
So since 2013 I havn't been able to go out or do much but sit because i don't want to be standing when anything happens or fall.
Problem is my psych thinks its Neruological (forgive my grammer and mispellings I am so tired and my head is wet) And my PCP keeps saying it is probly in my head but because my psychiatrist called the PCP to tell her she thinks something is up she gave me a refferal to the neuro.
Anyway I know when I see the neuro who happens to be a pychiatrist as well I will be pre judged as I always am and dismissed.
I can't get a new PCP or anything my insurance won't cover another.
I just can't stand it no more the lock and shakes and all make me to afraid to move the wet hea dmakes me feel insane I told them If they can't fix this I will off myself I can't live like this no more.
Does anyone else have the wet head/locking and all that?
If so was it just anxiety?
I tired calming down alot of times I was feeling ok or good before it sticks and when It passes I am usually really tired but after the sleepyness passes I am right back to normal like nothing happend!
When I lock it is embaressing cause I fold my hand to my chest and (not to be rude but to give visual. I do like the "retard" sign kids give in school) or random flias of the limbs. My feet and legs lck and in my spine. If I resist the locking the brning grows and soon I wont be able to be in control of the lock it will lock everything till I am done and the prolong locking leaves behinde pain when done.
I rambled I am sorry this is so long.
I know nobodys a doctor but I am tired of being blow off beecause I was told I have anxiety and "Bi polar" Once a Doc hears that they write me off.
So any opions on these sympotms or anyone who can relate id love to hear them or you're similar symptoms!
(These are not all my symptoms infact I listed the non normal ones I have many typical anxity symptoms like chest pain,faint feeling so on but these are not like them)
I will answer ?'s if you got any.
Again sorry for my mispellings and grammer I am not in a good state. I think I jamble dthis up and made it confusing if easier I could give a example of how a day (or week) goes when it happens to make the symptoms and "space outs" more clear to understand.
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