Posted , 3 users are following.
I began having dark and unpleasant feelings about myself last November and it began through me feeling inferior to everyone else. This then lead to me thinking my friends were getting sick and tired of my depression and dealing with me being upset and having low moods.
My best friend was always really supportive of me to the point where he would actively go out of his way to help me by ringing me up, walking home with me from nights out when I was feeling down and talking me round. He was my strongest support.
Recently I had been getting paranoid as well as depressed and I began thinking my best friend was messaging his other friends to discuss how sick and tired of me he was. It got so bad that on a number of occasions I actually checked his messaging history to make sure he hadn't said those things. He hadn't.
He found out about this last week and said he no longer wanted to be my friend, that I had betrayed his trust and that he wanted to move on in his life without me. We had been very close mates for 3 years at this point. I honestly don't know what to do.
I can't sleep properly, I feel sick constantly and all I want is my friend back. But he has blocked my messages on Facebook and has explicitly said he wants nothing to do with me. I feel lost without my mate because he shouldered so much of my depression.
Now whenever I would have normally contacted him to talk about my depression I am instead reminded of how he is no longer there and it burns me up inside.
Please if anyone could offer advice or help on what to do I would really appreciate it.
1 like, 5 replies