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Lost my sh*t tonight

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Crazycat
Crazycat

I don't know about everyone else but having suffered depression and anxiety for most of my life ( 43 yrs young ) we the collective, and I say that from many I have met and chatted to on this forum get that we are a most compassionate and loving of beings, to our own cost for the most part and yet we suck it up as we weigh up the feelings of others above and beyond our own, to what end I ask ? To be silenced by compassion for another ? To forego our needs for the sake of another ? Well tonight and justifiably so I vented my frustration and that's not to say that now I am not without guilt all be it not mine to bare. Where does it stop ? Who ends it ? Why the hell do we give a sh* t anyway ?

No I don't want to change and why should I ? But the world doesn't accept me, simples ! So why should I bother with it ?

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  • patricia44773
    patricia44773 Crazycat

    Posted

    How did you vent your frustration, Crazycat? 

    I completely agree with what you have said about "the collective", but I don't understand who wants you to change and why.

    Don't let people get you down, stay strong and be you, you are special.

    Pat.

    • Crazycat
      Crazycat patricia44773

      Posted

      Hi Patricia thank you for your reply and I vented it at my daughter in law whom unfortunetly, after I my add me having a gastroscopy and endoscopy today which had caused much anxiety for myself and whom which their sofa I am now dosing after ending my 10yrrelationship with my alcoholic partner not 8 weeks ago and starting afresh in a new place with nothing but the clothes on my back to not have them be available to collect me from hospital meaning a 4 hour wait from discharge and just wanting to go " home " be it what it may and being let down to having a massive row and to be told that no apology was needed and now sleeping in my car.

      When and why do I deserve this ?

    • patricia44773
      patricia44773 Crazycat

      Posted

      Oh wow, that is just too much, I am so, so sorry.  You do not deserve that, I am shocked, I don't know what to say.  Nobody deserves that, my heart aches for you.

      I really do not know what to say, just that I will keep you in my thoughts and hope that things improve for you.

      Pat xxxxx

    • Crazycat
      Crazycat patricia44773

      Posted

      Thank you Patricia and me too, I shall stand strong tomorrow I'm sure but for now I am in melt down and accept it for what it is xxx
  • dondons
    dondons Crazycat

    Posted

    XXXXX
    • dondons
      dondons Crazycat

      Posted

      I want to say something helpful, something productive but I don't know what to say, you're so much more wiser than I am that I'd feel patronising if I were to say anything X

      All can do is send my love to you and tell you that I hope tomorrow is a better day for you xxx

    • Crazycat
      Crazycat dondons

      Posted

      If it's any consolation to you ? I also hope for a better tomorrow and trust me I am no wiser, I am but longer surved in this hell xxx
    • Crazycat
      Crazycat orange12933

      Posted

      Not so much today but hey not often I'm in this boat lol xx
    • Crazycat
      Crazycat orange12933

      Posted

      Yeh got that particular t shirt ! No fun hey ? So whom be your worst enemy ?

      Speaking personally I am my own for the most part xx

    • orange12933
      orange12933

      Posted

      People who say you can live off benefits are in cookoo land.
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