Lumps and pain under left breast on rib. What's next?

I am known to have severe health anxiety and I guess you can say I am very in tuned with my body sensations. I have an obsession with feeling around my neck, breasts, abdomen, and groin. I have major depression and anxiety disorder but currently not on any medication. I tend to try to control it myself with distracting myself with hobbies, meditation, socializing, etc. However, my subconcious anxiety still bothers me when I have a pain or ache. So to start a little background of what has been going on, I'll mention what has happended since September 2016. I was taking about 18 credits at my university and was constantly caffienated. As I was typing up a paper at the library, I had a slight itch on my neck and then started to feel around the area of the itch. I felt a slight "lump" and then ran to the bathroom to examine more. The right sternocleidomastoid muscle is defiantly bigger than the left side. I started to panic and cry and ran home right away. So for a few days, I was doing my Google research on "lump on right sternocleidomastoid" and kept getting some scary results from the search engine. I had nightmares about if for 4 days and that's when I decided I must see an ENT. The ENT PA felt something very slight which she thought is my thyroid and sent me for an ultrasound of the neck. Results came in the same day stating "no thyroid nodules identified but a 3 mm colloid cyst seen in the right mid lobe. No abnormalities are seen adjacent to the thyroid gland." I was very relieved but at the same time still have a bad feeling about it but eventually accepting it's my anxiety. A few weeks later towards the end of the month, while sitting in class I start sweating and getting chills, nauseas, and dizzy. My professor had us start working in groups and I couldn't even talk or make eye contact. I was trembling and nauseas, and looking very pale. I exused myself that night, almost taking myself to the ER, but my husband was on the phone with me telling me to not go there and to go home so I took his word and drove home immediately. The next morning, I went to an Urgent Care center to describe my symptoms of nausea, chills, tremors, and mentioned about the "lump." They took my vitals and performed a CBC. Everything came out normal and no signs of illness Later that day, even after doctor consulting me that everything looks normal, my husband took me out for dinner to get my mind off of everything. At dinner, I was feeling weak, chills, sweating, nausea, dizziness and couldn't even walk. As my husband was speaking to me I couldn't make eye contact or answer him. When the food came, I couldn't open my mouth. My jaw was "locked" and my whole body felt like shut down. I literally felt like I was dying! I wanted to go to the ER but figured I should go home and rest. Forwarding a week later on October 1, 2016 on a Saturday night, I was feeling very dizzy/vertigo. I started to Google the symptoms which said "brain tumor." I had nausea, weakness, and tremors again. I could barely walk or talk. I told my husband that I need to go to the ER immediately and I cannot take this anymore! So he drove me and I complaint about my symptoms. The nurses hooked me up with sodium chloride, took blood and I demanded a CT scan of the head because I was convinced of a brain tumor. Again, everything came out clear! I went home that night with huge feeling of relief. Ever since I promised myself I wouldn't let this anxiety and thoughts get to me again. Then finally I found myself a GP who is an internist. I just wanted to find myself a primary physician to get a full physical for the last time this year. I shared my concerns, symptoms, and ER visit. They took blood and she checked and examined everything around my body. She said the "lump" in my neck could be slight lymph node (hate that word) from acne but most likely "knotty muscles" and nothing of concern. I also showed her two protruding bones, one under my clavcle left side and one under my breast left side. She said it's just bone and nothing to worry about. It could even be costochondritis. After that full physical I felt so much better. However, I started to compare the 3 CBC exams from the different locations. I noticed that my WBC went from a 7 to 10 to 11 all in a month which caused me to panic that they missed something. I went back to my GP and she said "your anxiety is taking over your life hunny. Please get help and get on the Lexapro that was given to you." She also explained that blood cells flucuate and each lab is different. It's rare to have the same levels each time so I tried my best to take her word. Slowly but surely, I got over it.  A few weeks later in November I started to wake up to severe, sharp left rib pains that felt like a knife cutting the rib. This is around the protruding bone area... I changed sleeping position and it went away. I tried not to let that bother me and looked up online that it could be another symptom of anxiety but who knows.... Fast forward now to January 2017 with some chest pains again but not as severe. I would say its more chronic in that same area. I went to an urgent care last week to have the doctor look at the protruding bone and explained about lump being their for over a year, shooting pains, and now chronic pain. He sent me for an x-ray right away. I went the next day, first thing in the morning. At night the doctor called with results stating that x-ray looked normal but.. he recommened a CT scan just to be sure. I have not made an appointment but I am scared and tired at the same time to keep going to doctors and exams. I know I will do it eventually but I have gotten busy with school and work now... I still get chronic pain in this area of my rib and started to get some slight pains above my breast also. The scary part is I examined my ribs again and next to the protruding bone I found a movable lump right under my skin. It is not visible but can easily be felt. I think the doctor must have missed this or something but it scares me. Sometimes when I cough that area with the bone and the moveable lump hurts. Also, above my left breast I get aching pains when I cough. Also, I developed "asthma" these couple days. Like when put hand sanitizer I get cough attacks and they're dry, no mucus, nothing. I am so tired of all of this I have no clue what is going on. These are probably minor symptoms for normal people but for me I come to the worst conclusion. If nothing showed up in the x-ray, what else could the hard and soft lump be? Why do I get unexplainable chest pains? and unexplained sudden coughs? I keep thinking I have a silent terminal disease. I keep thinking I am going to die young. I am 22 turning 23 in March. When I turned 20, I was so surprised and cried of joy because I did not think I would reach 20 due to my health anxiety and depressive thoughts.

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