Major anxiety that started in 2020
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Hello guys. My anxiety is horrible now. I have seen a psychiatrist and they are starting me on Prozac in a week or shorter. Heres how it all started.
In 2020, as many of us were, I was unemployed for 8+ months, and that is where this all started. I was NEVER nervous driving before, and I have never been in a bad crash. One day while leaving the complex I saw a rock chip in my window. After that I would be paranoid that that mark would make me crash on this right curve leaving the complex, as I looked right in its direction while leaving. So when I made it out, I turned around tons of times and drove out again to "test" to make sure I can get out safely. I needed reassurance that I could make it out next time.
Over the next year it got much worse. I would worry about oh what if this song beat made me steer weird while I was straightening the wheel out and make me crash, stuff like oh my mind would be like oh would I see some weird reflection in the window that would make me crash. So I would have to test over and over, driving out of my place over and over until nothing weird happened so I was assured that I can get out of the house safely.
So I just found a work from home job, and with me barely driving, guess what? It spread to something else. So it is NOT the car. Now I am worried out the front door, how I step, breathe, blink, would it affect me trying to leave and trip out of the door or not be able to get out.
My point is my brain is constantly anxious, creating ways of bad things that could happen in different scenarios, preventing me from having my day or getting out without being worried. Idk where this came from. I am not crazy, I have never had voices in my head, I just worry about dumb stuff, and as soon as one is over, another one comes up. I am tired of testing, going in circles just to relax. I hope the Prozac helps me calm down, paired with therapy would be nice so I can learn to stop worrying and making up dumb stuff.
What is wrong with me? I know maybe it can be a deep fear of being stuck home, unemployed. Idk. Sometimes it subsides, and I am happy, but I have been mostly happy when I "tested" the thing im worried about and its in the clear. Severe anxiety. I am not suidical, I am not depressed. Idk, I feel insane, like this is making life hard to live. Any ideas? Am I crazy?
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Ghost007
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Also let me add, not fully, but when I visited my parents house, and when I started working from home driving less, it got a bit better, but the more I sat at home it started up again but with other stuff. Idk the efficiency I rent its bad vibes, any other room in the house i feel a bit better.