manic depression-emotional unstable personality disorder

Hi

First of all, let me say I have no comparable experiences to you. But I can see that you are honest with yourself, and to me that means that you're on the right track. I wouldn't pay too much attention to what the doctors or others say because they don't really know what your life is like. What is important is that you believe in your own intentions. I think the drugs and the negative advice you recieve have a tendency to create their own problems, and its not surprising you end up feeling as you do now. I think you need to reclaim your own confidence from the mess that has been imposed on you, and things might start looking a bit brighter. I know its not easy, but sometimes we have to assert ourselves when we know what's right and when we know we should follow our own instincts despite everything. I'm not sure how dependant you are on the drugs you take but maybe you could start regaining yourself by deciding before you take them each time whether they are absolutely necessary.

Hi Rachel. I've also got the same 'list' of diagnosis as you. It used to be called 'Borderline Personality'- lots of info online. But.......because of the depression and bipolar it is unfortunately really difficult to treat. Main problem I have found is that many professionals don't seem to understand how someone with BPD feels and you are seen to be 'manipulative', 'attention seeking' and 'difficult'. There are specialist therapies available depending on where you live, so you can at least meet other people who understand. I've been on various meds but a tablet that helps with moods can affect depression and vice versa. It's hard to cope with the emotional rollercoasters that come with BPD especially with children. I got the best support from a local organisation to me, after speaking to the SENCO at my child's school. They work with parents who have mental health problems and support them at school and home. Perhaps your childs school could suggest something similar. Keep smiling.

Hi Rachel,

I can relate to the depression side of things and the many different anti depressants which dont really do anything positive. I have also recently been told by a doctor that i have EMPD, the new label for BPD. I dont have the aggressive side of it that i seem to read all the time online about it, therefore im awaiting another visit to my gp to see if i can get a second opinion on my diagnosis, as in my opinion i have unipolar depression, but maybe i have both, who knows. I cant get any help from the local cmht as i refuse to go for group therapy, something to do with trust issues, but the medical staff seem to pay no attention.

Anyway, i hope you get something sorted out, we all have to keep a small glimmer of hope going, but i think mine is running very low on fuel these day. Best of luck hun

sorry, should have read EUPD, not EMPD