Maybe I have always had some form of anxiety disorder without realising it?
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So I have been starting to think or even realise that maybe I have always had an anxiety disorder there....For example I got my first panic attack at a library couple years ago and went through a phase of having mild anxiety ocd gay thoughts and thinking "What if I am gay"? I am not against homosexuality just so you know and I am fine with the fact I could be bi or a lesbian for the matter. However, I used to always get panic attacks revolving around those thoughts. They kind of lessened over time. 2 years ago I had severe anxiety around intrusive sexual thoughts that plummeted me into a spiral of sickness. After I got over the intrusive thoughts I found a hobby and a passion for reptiles! I was loving it, however I was always stresed thinking "What if they get MBD (which is a severe sickness that can develop in reptiles if not properly cared for). I was constantly asking all of my reptile friends about different behaviours/and or symptons my reptile has eg- Is it normal he has an open mouth, or that he toes don't stick flat to the ground blah, blah, blah! I would never get panic attacks over it though so I don't think that was anxiety, just more like worry...? Finally, I have health and social anxiety....Started few months ago. Is it normal for an axiety disorder to change/morph? Have I always had a genetic predisposition to anxiety and never realised this until now ?
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vanessa45115 Cherish25
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Yes you may have. When my anxiety acts up, I also get intrusive thoughts (terrible ones I can't even write in this space), very, very frightening. I'm sure it's possible for an anxiety disorder to change. The first time I started getting anxiety, it started over my health and now, that's not my constant worry anymore. When I get the "butterflies" in my stomach, my intrusive thoughts come to mind. You should seek counselling, meds or both. I get both and I do a lot of reading up on my condition. It just makes me feel not so crazy when I read about anxiety and intrusive thoughts and how it is totally normal in high anxiety. Knowledge is power. Do you have lots of support?
Cherish25 vanessa45115
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Ahh yes I completly understand! Thanks for all this wonderful support! Makes me feeel better for sure What symptons do u have if I may ask? Do u get a sloshy sounding tummy? Mine sounds like a hot water bottle! I don't get it, I get symtons even when I don't have any heart racing, do u get that? Like I was over in the shed and my legs were shaking! I also have no nerves left in my leg as I can't feel anything..., that normal? lol It sucks !
vanessa45115 Cherish25
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There's not enough room in this forum to list all of my symptoms of anxiety lol. Yes, I do get all of yours plus many, many more. It's a terrible feeling, you feel like you're a visitor in your own body. I couldn't have got through it without medication. I have been on 100 mg for 7 years and 12 days ago, my doctor increased my dose to 150 because after a couple of traumatic incidents my anxiety and intrusive thoughts returned. 12 days and I'm still waiting for something "magical" to happen. Can't wait because I've had enough of this crap!!
johnwicks Cherish25
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kimberly59704 Cherish25
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It sounds like you have obsessive thoughts. We do obsess when we have anxiety, and it will keep getting worse,till your in full blown panic. If your repeating physical things, then that's OCD. If it's your thoughts,and your mind is alway's racing, then that's from major anxiety. Please don't let this go on, and on. Call your family doc and they will start you on a antidepressant. See if you start to feel better. I'm sure you will.