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I am a 26 year old women and at this point I feel like all is lost and hopeless. I use to be a very church going person but a few bad choices made me stop going to church so much.
I always feel as if i always get left behind as if no one cares except for my parents. They are also the reason I try to hang on so much to this life.
I am trying to grad fro grad school but everytime i get close to finishing something always gets in the way and I always fall slightly short on my GPA. I am tired of chasing something for almost 8 years and it's not getting me anywhere. I can't bare to look at my parents in the face anymore and tell them i didn't make it and i have to repeat another year...yet again.
With all this for the past 26 years I haven;t found one honest friend to be there for me thru thick and thin. or a man to even care enough about me ...more than just my physical aspect. I kept ending up in relationships where i end up heartbroken. One it got so bad i could focus and got into a major car accident.
All this has made to resent God ...i feel like he isn't listening and won't hear me. Like he is punishing me for straying away from Him. thoughts of ending this life of mine come and go all the time. the only thing i am scared of if how my parents will be after I am gone...and it's the only thing that is currently keeping me from ending this hopeless life.
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