I've been a heroin user since 2011 and started at 30yold . Anyway I've been on off on off and inbetween I've lost everything including all self respect.
I tried naltrexone tablets(October 2015) with some success and managed to stay sober for 7 months and relapsed . Then I cold turk again and I'm fine go back on my stash of naltrexone and I stay sober for a few months .
Anyway lately I've been forced back to work , not that I don't want to work have money and live, but forced meaning doing jobs out with my profession because I've no confidence to get back in when I'm feeling low .
Anyway I've gotten sober against the odds and lost 2 jobs because of relapsing and not being able to get up n out of bed .
I've refused methadone for years because i don't want to have to come off of it . At the moment I've dug a hole via this universal credit and I'm completely depressed and I'm using every other day .
I know I could get sober again but I seem to relapse and relapse harder .
I'm just wondering if methadone would give me some sort of will to try as each time I get sober with no opiates, I'm very fragile even after 2 months I'm very apprehensive about life and become lonely and boom I relapse .
Anyway I'm mostly wondering if going onto methadone would get rid of the anxiety and allow me to get my life together , but I wallow n wonder if I'm the problem and using is the result . Anyway if appreciate some advice as I have an appointment with addiction services again soon . Thanks