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Hi All, I am from Australia Melbourne to be percise and would really apprecaite peoples thoughts. So some 12 months ago I had a major panic attack due to smoking cannabise. It lasted or 6 hours and every mucle in my body was twitiching out of fear. I haven't touched it ever since, i dont think any sane person would. I don't want to write my life story but basically i got 3 more anxiety attacks after that incident which were no induced ny any substances. This got me panicing and I was on vallium for 3 weeks while starting a drug called arropax. started at 20mg and went up to 50mg and have been on it for 12 month. I found that it was working but the last 3 months I have been feeling anxiety and depression and mainly insomnia for a while. sorry whithin the 12 month of taking arropax i have been excerising and tried CBT with more then 3 phycologists. Under the recommendations from a phycistrist I have started Mirtazapine and gradually reduced arropax from 50mg to 40mg to 30 etc weekly and at 10mg i started taking 7.5mg of mirtazapine. If i havent lost you so far, I starting taking 10mg of arropax in the morning and 7.5mg of mirtazapine while also taking 5mg of vallium. I then under the supervision of my gp was told take 15mg of mirtazapine with stop the arropax completely. I have been taking 15mg for mirtazapine for 1 week and tomorrow I will start 30mg of mirtazapine. OK so I am feeling irrational angre and anxiety has increased to a certain extent. I went to the gp today because I was experincing not so much anxiety but mood swings and a lot of agression so I took a vallium and it somewhat simmered down. I went to the gp to explain what happened and he told me to take 30mg with a vallium a day untill we reach a more theroprudic dose. I have vowed to myself to do what the professional tell me but in my mind I wanted to stop all of the anxiety/depression pills period and just cope it on the head and see what happens, worse comes to worse i thought i would take a vallium and if it didn't get better then I will start over with mirtazapine, these were only thoughts in mind because I have done heaps of research and it scientests have no proven the chemical imbalance theory and really do not 100% know how to cure anxiety. There is are theories about these drugs and most of them have heaps of unwanted side affects like my irrational angre. Anyway I am still sad mainly because I can't hold a job or a relationship. I am now going to try a new type of therpy called Phychoanalitical therapy which is the tradtional way of actaully looking into your past and reconciling with whatever it is that is making me this way. I will start my new dose of 30mg tomorrow and 1 valluim per day. It feels debilitating that I have to take vallium with something that is meant to control my anxiety but I am only taking it because the irritation and edgyness is so drastic that i can't be myself, just always on edge. The hope is that eventually the drug will kick in and will drop of the vallium and increase it to 45mg or so while going to the gym and trying this new phychotherpy i have never done before. The gp says that if i am stil feeling really angry and sensitive then we will have to try something else. I am confused hence why I am using this forum to get idea to help me ease through this process. Thanks everyone in advance.
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